I'm really angry because I was crying for 3 hours over people who do not deserve to get to me in that way. My dad and I hardly have a relationship and whatever is left of it is not that great. When we try to pretend like it's there it doesn't really work out or it just feels unnatural. However, I'm accustomed to acting like things are fine between us or the same as they were when I was 5 years old, to the point of it actually feeling like it's natural. Anyways, I do not live with him and thank god for that because he is a very manipulative person. When I used to stay with him, we couldn't stand one another if we were together for more than 4 days, because I was the only person who called him out on his lies and he didn't(still doesn't) like that.
My dad lives in his own world, in other words, he hears what he wants to hear and twists words the way he wants them to have been said even if they weren't, basically nothing you say matters. I have had my feeling invalidated my entire childhood by everyone that was in my life, so growing up I didn't care to express how I feel because it just seemed pointless. That is until I finally did express myself and suddenly became a very "angry pubescent girl". It's like it all resurfaced since I finally understood how wrong they all were. However, when I finally let it all out and explained how much they've all wronged me, it was for nothing, because once again my own words were being twisted in a way that made them unrecognizable to my own ears. My dad is married to a woman who is the epitome of a two-faced b****. I have tried to mend my "relationship" with this woman, but she continues to aggravate me by being her lovely cunning and well, in short, phony self. My dad and I don't talk much anymore because he is, on top of everything else, a very moody person who taught me to be quiet even when I shouldn't be. He has his ways of showing that it's a bad day for him and I've learned it the hard way that he just shouldn't be approached then because if you do approach him on one of "those" days, everything that's ever upset him will suddenly be your fault. Whenever I try to have a normal conversation about how he is acting irrational, his wife steps in and laughs about how "dramatic" I am being. This only enforces his belief that I am an overly emotional person who overreacts and over analyzes situations. This is hilarious to me because everyone who knows me knows that I hardly ever express how I feel and I am very good at explaining/understanding situations from both sides of an argument. The reason I wrote this post is because I'm upset. I'm hurt that no matter what I do, someone always finds a way to blame me for every little inconvenience in their life. I'm upset that no matter what I do, it will never be enough, I know all I do should only ever be enough for me, but it's like if people see that you're happy even when you're not doing anything, they want to suck it right out of you.
Family 
Am I overreacting to my family? 
Sexual assault by a family member
Family Doesn't Understand
