Teetering to the dark side

[Puzzled57]

Feeling a bit fragile today. I have been heading this way for over a week and yet I keep trying to stay balanced. The voice inside is telling me “you’re a loser”. I’m trying not to listen but for some reason it’s very hard today. I haven’t been given the opportunity to just be in my misery and come out the other side.

[lillyofthevalley37]

when you say a voice is it just really a phrase going through your mind or an actual voice?

[Puzzled57 in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

I’m so sorry for not replying to your question. I wasn’t ignoring you- I was trying to figure out how to describe this ‘voice’ to you. You know how you read silently to yourself and you hear your own voice saying the words as you read? That is the voice. The things that are said are probably my projections but it doesn’t matter because they are negative and I have trouble turning them into positives. It is what I believe about myself at the time. I know what meds to be done but I’m stuck at times.

[lillyofthevalley37 in reply to Puzzled57]

Well I hope you are feeling better ?

[Puzzled57 in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

Not yet. Had the worst day of this episode yesterday. I will come out of it eventually as I do. How are you feeling?

[lillyofthevalley37 in reply to Puzzled57]

Not too bad I suppose I could be better but then I could be alot worse

We keep battling on I guess

[Puzzled57 in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

Yes we do my friend. Here’s to keeping things in perspective!

[Hidden]

Sounds like the ugly disease talking to you...find something to do that makes you smile...maybe youtube some funny things. I'm sorry you're going through this difficult time...continue to fight for yourself...do as best you can to feed positive thoughts into your mind, push away the negative ones, they don't help you....I wish you all the best...

Sparkles & dump trucks of groovy love, peace, light, joy & hugs Puzzled57!

[NoNo19]

It's hard for me to turn off the voice inside at times, so I sometimes have to turn to someone else's. 😊

Times like these, I like to put on motivational speeches via YouTube and listen to 'I am' affirmations or things just motivating me not to quit and/or not to speak negatively.

It helps me.

But what you said too about being in your misery...Yes, sometimes we want to feel feelings, or sometimes we have no choice. But there are times when it's ok to do nothing and just process. It could be helpful in assessing 'why do I feel this way?' 'is there something or someone that triggered it?' 'does being in a negative space for too long seem to be helpful or hurtful?'

But hey, I'm no therapist. Do what works for you boo! 😉

Much love and wishing you kind thoughts. 😘

[Puzzled57 in reply to NoNo19]

I love the idea of affirmation talks! As it is, my husband won’t let me wallow (which is probably a good thing). Thanks for the support!!!

[NoNo19]

You're so welcome 😊