Having a bad night

[vickh9]

Feeling very hopeless and really anxious tonight. I have work tomorrow and I need sleep, any suggestions?

[Medit8]

When I have a hard time sleeping, I play meditation music through my phone and I’ll put my phone under my pillow and as I lay down, the music calms me. Have you tried this before ?

[vickh9 in reply to Medit8]

No never but I am wanting to try everything. I don’t want work finding out I’m like this as I’m only back after being off sick for 8 months, I don’t want them thinking I’m not capable in my job. Plus if they say the dreaded works “what’s wrong” I know I will cry and probably won’t be able to stop 🙈 I have Apple Music, I shall look for it on that. Thank you for your advice!!

[Hidden in reply to Medit8]

Music of any kind will make my mind more active as I listen to the lyrics (if any) and the tones of the various instruments and how they interweave to form a lovely tune. YouTube also has meditation sounds. Rain drops falling, breeze through the trees, thunderstorm in the distance, soft waves breaking on the beach, etc. Just sound to meditate by, and hopefully fall asleep.

[vickh9 in reply to Hidden]

I will try that tonight!! Thank you!!

[vickh9]

I kinda always feel like this, but it’s gotten worse over the years. This is gonna sound stupid but i feel to embarrassed to go to docs, I’ve been there a lot (8 months having to go to them) as I had an illness I didn’t know I had so I got very sick and I worry that they think I’m taking the piss. I know it sounds silly but I feel like anytime I try to say things out loud people think I’m just having a bad day, and play it down because I am so happy, bubbly and upbeat all the time, but it’s so difficult trying to keep up this fake version of myself. Just don’t know how to do this. Yes I’ve heard about meditation, I was going to try yoga but I have never been.

[Billsfriend in reply to vickh9]

I have found a lot of great videos on YouTube that teach meditation and yoga. One of my favorites is by " pick up limes"

[vickh9 in reply to Billsfriend]

Thank you I shall look this up!!!

[Hidden]

Best thing will get out of bed do something to occupy your mind, music, reading, cross word, preferably something in dim light.

Another thing and based on experience, is to tell yourself if you don’t get sleep, you will be okay. Acceptance that your night is not going as you planned will keep your stress down, keep your heart rate lower. Stress, anger over not sleeping keeps our heart rate increased.

Another thing, take a warm shower. This will help lower your body temperature (after you cool down and get dressed) relax you and your muscles and you may be surprised that if you can calm your mind back down, you’ll get sleepy again.

[vickh9 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for this, I will try everything, I really am very grateful for everyone’s advice!!

[vickh9]

Thanks yes the illness is under control now but I think sometimes it’s maybe pushed me further mentally. I’m gust gonna have to make myself go and tell the doc the truth (knowing me I will walk in super happy though as I always do). Thank you for your advice I really appreciate any help I can get!!

[ragstogod in reply to vickh9]

Find one person you can open up to. It may not be easy but as long as you fight your "battle " alone you won`t feel better. It`s like a battlefield in your mind. No one can survive alone. I have shared my illness with someone other than family for the first time a week ago, I am 68. Don`t wait that long. Just step out. Pretending to be Great is a cover many of us use. Go to your local mental health office, or call. Find out what they offer for support.

Best wishes

[vickh9 in reply to ragstogod]

This is why I like this group so much as nobody judges, everyone is helpful and all understand this. I feel like a few people I know get this but they have their own issues so I automatically refer to the positive fake persona. Thank you for your help, I need to make the next step and ask for help

[san_ray70]

I quite often wake 2hrs after going to bed, if I cannot sleep I go down, make a drink, and watch tele. Nine times outof ten relax and fall asleep. I am lucky I am retired it must be worse if you work. Have you see your doctor or tried herbal tablets.

[vickh9 in reply to san_ray70]

No every time I try to tell the doc I freak out and don’t tell them the extent of this plus my docs think what I’ve went through recently with this condition I have is contributing towards it, but I’ve been like this from a child. I just need to tell docs that it ain’t good.

[Gelliplate]

Be kind to yourself, as best you can, as you are struggling. No matter what anyone else may think, you are a good person. Right now your happy upbeat manner may be a defense that you need. When the time is right, you will be able to start letting go of it.

[vickh9 in reply to Gelliplate]

I hope so, thank you for your kind words!!