Fear has taken over me

[Crystal1534]

I'm new to the group ,but I had been on here before a few months ago looking for some support. Its remarkable how many of us have the same feelings ,I thought I was alone and weird, I mean i am weird I guess , but I'm just happy to know that there are other people out there like me. Hi everyone. I pray that this thing for us disappears everyday. I'm tired of feeling afraid of doing things. As of a few years ago I've completely stopped living. This anxiety , depression and fear has taken over to the point where I'm not working, I barely wanna leave the house and when I have to ,I go through it bad in my head ,like I have to build myself up just to go. I'm always afraid of People staring and judging me or thinking I'm gonna get into a fight or something. The crazy thing is ,I am a nice looking female , so ..ive always been told , ,So people always stare when I'm out and I hate it sometimes..You know people would never think I suffer like this inside ,because people tend to judge u by your looks. If they only knew. I hide it well . But I'm dying inside and I wanna live again and be happy inside. What am I so afraid of? The physical symptoms are debilitating, I'm always feeling ill. I'm scared to get on meds because I had a bad reaction from one I was on ,it felt like I was being zapped or a shock like feeling in my brain. Has anyone ever felt that? I dont know what to do anymore .I fight it everyday . Today my struggle is washing clothes ,I have piles of clothes on the floor ,and i have to travel to the laundry mat to wash them. I've been putting them off obviously for a while but it's out if control now. Is anyone there to talk or help ??

[Caseopia]

Hi Crystal1534. I have a lot of the same going on that you described. I live in fear and don’t know why. I even have to force myself to the grocery store if I need food and have anxiety the whole time. But I force myself to go. I’ve had the “zings” in before from medicine. It’s like my brain gets zapped by lightening over and over. You are not alone. I was just chatting with someone yesterday who also has a lot of fears. It is common for people with depression, anxiety , etc. it’s so hard to get out and for some other reasons as well I can’t work and that crushes me. But I’m trying to accept my disabilities and mental ticks instead of being ashamed with myself.

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I would love to talk to you

[CNDmoonchild]

You are not alone and I am glad you posted. Now I do not feel alone and actually, now normal. Thanks to you. Just remember, together we stand, divided we will fail. So let us just share our experiences and grow from each others success'. THANK YOU Crystal1534

[hatemyhead]

you really, really need to find a good talk therapist, and see your doc to try some meds, they really do work, if you do nothing you will slowly spiral down into an even darker place than you already are in. good luck and prayers