Is this life a Test? To make us Stronger?

[capeggy]

I've had many challenges with depression/anxiety/agoraphobia so why do I think I'm past the extra crap?. I'm a senior. I live alone/no family. Soon to be 2020 and today I received yet another rent increase (30 days)... Working on not crying. Thanks for listening.. Happy New Years!!!..

[MrZee]

I’m a senior too. Years ago in college I took a Self Awareness class. I absolutely adored my professor. I’ll never forget her saying, “We’re put on this earth to strive.” I was in my early 20s then and had no clue what that meant.

It took me years to get it. And yes, life tosses us its curve balls... but it’s up to us to make the best of what it has to offer.

[MistB]

It sounds like things are tight financially. Have you considered public benifits? They should be able to help with bills and such untill you graduate and make some real cash. Especially with no familly, getting through college is hard and comes with a lot of unique chanelges. For what it is worth, I am proud of you for making it to a new year!

[capeggy in reply to MistB]

I put money away or this so I don't qualify. I'm ok for now but my mind won't let it go.

[MistB in reply to capeggy]

Yeah, it can be hard to let go of the bad that happens. For me, it has been that my dad was diagnosed with tramatic brain injury. I don't know if the issues from the outside will ever stop. And its hard not to stop thinkinv about them, but maybe if we try hard enough, we can set goals and look at the good stuff instead. Or find good things, make them exist to hold onto. I decided to try that this new year. Maybe itll help you to.

[Sprinkle1]

Hello, I to am a senior, no family near and my friend of 10 years died in Aug. Just fresh out of a 3 year battle with anxiety/depression which was hell. I am on a new to me med. Cymbalta it is working, along with a wonderful therapist who has helped me understand my illness. I am happy, and enjoy each day, I do volunteer work at the local library which helps to keep my brain sharp. My community was just bought by a new company first thing they did was put my rent up!!! Then I got a miserly increase in S.S. so that will not go far. Oh. well, I have all I need, I own my home, rent the property it is built on in a Senior Community. Have food, clothes and a comfy warm bed, so I am not lacking. I am grateful for what I have achieved in my life, though depression/anxiety have dogged me all my life. I have lived thru many adversity's, that have made me stronger and wiser. I wish You well, be at peace with yourself, love yourself, like yourself,, enjoy your life, that is what it is for. I send you love and success in 2020. with Hugs.....Sprinkle 1.....

[capeggy in reply to Sprinkle1]

Thanks for the "hug".. I just wish "outside issues" would stop. I would like to feel happy or mildly ok again. Take care.

[kenster1]

hi I felt like you do before.when my mum died it was really difficult I had pretty much no one as me and my dad had fell out and I was a stay at home carer till I was 38.i was made homeless pretty much had nothing apart from my dog and it was tough going.no friends or family would help and I truly felt I had been put here as a test.here if you need a chat you don't have to be doing this alone anymore.

[capeggy in reply to kenster1]

Thank you.

[kenster1 in reply to capeggy]

no worries anytime somehow I managed to overcome the intense feelings and you will as well.