I know you’re hurting 😔💜

[UnderstandingMyPain]

I am writing to you because we are connected by one thing, we both suffer from the demon that rides our back every day, a demon that does not respond to questions, does not adhere to logic and seems almost invincible to all attempts of reason. But there is one way to deal with it; it’s to realize that you are not alone. Man, at some points in my life I would have done given anything to have someone to tell me all of this, but I didn't. I am not filled with some false sense of duty, nor did I put my shining armour to come to your rescue. I come to you because I’m terrified, terrified that someone else, someone who I could possibly help, for one second, is stuck somewhere I know too well and want to do everything within my power to get them out.

You aren’t being melodramatic by asking for help and nor should you expect someone to understand the complex chain of events that led you down that dark hole and if someone says otherwise, ignore them, what do they know? Just talk to someone, anyone, once you get over that initial hump of “they won’t understand”, you will realise that they don’t have to, they couldn’t possibly, but they are still there for you. What a wonderful thing.

I want to know that when I am down that dark hole, struggling, if I reach out, I can feel someone else fighting, to give me hope, to give a push to keep at it. Even though you might not think it, everyone in the world needs you, everyone who is down and fighting needs you, and I need you, now more than ever.

Fear nothing and remember that failure is commonly found along the path to success.

Just remember, you're not alone.

[HJam5880]

I fully understand all of what you wrote as I am in the midst of all of this right now. My anxiety meds (that I just started yesterday) are already working or at least my mind thinks they are. Also I don’t have as much stress since I was done with school on Thursday night so that helps. I finally feel hope that everything is going to be ok. I had a good day today. It would have been a great day but my horse passed away today. We had him and his mom, but she passed away a few years ago. He has always been a part of my life. He’s around 30 and I’m 21 and he was born when my grandparents already had his mom, so we have literally had him all of his life and he has literally been there for all of my life. Other than that I’ve had a really good day. I’ve known that his death was coming, so even though it was a shock, I’m not really upset even though I’ll miss him. Not sure if the lack of emotion is from the meds or not.

[UnderstandingMyPain in reply to HJam5880]

Thanks HJam for sharing. It’s good to know with all the challenges you are dealing with that overall was a good day for you. I know that some days are better than some. Keep pushing.

[HJam5880 in reply to UnderstandingMyPain]

Thank you!

[Hidden]

Thankyou. for this wonderful , and caring empathetic post 😊

[UnderstandingMyPain in reply to Hidden]

💜☺️ you’re welcome!!! Enjoy the rest of your weekend and I hope you have a good week!!!

[Hidden in reply to UnderstandingMyPain]

Thankyou. have a good day. 😊🎄🌹

[skeetersfly]

I’m not too proud to say that I’m crying right now. You are a beautiful person, UnderstandingMyPain. I’ve had a bad day, and reading your messages has given me hope that there are good people.