Alone

[aubs_1001]

Ever since my last post, I’ve just felt more alone. I feel as though I’m just screaming in a room full of people and no one hears me. My sister and nephew were murdered, and I found them with my other sister. I am going through so much but no one cares and no one is listening. I listen to her and how she is feeling, but no one asks me. No one cares. What’s the point on opening up and being vulnerable when no one is there and they don’t care? What is the point of doing anything anymore. My heart literally hurts, it’s broken. Literally. & I just wish I had someone especially now, to hold me. To take care of me. I’m just so tired

[kenster1]

hi I care we care we all do on here gosh im so sorry to read your post that truly is heart breaking.i know it is hard to try and live with but when I lost my son all I ever thought about was the way he died but I learned not to forget it but just know he is at peace out of harms way and that really helps me.i lacked support as well apart from my mum but nothing much more.talking really helps either in person or join an online bereavement group.we have a forum on here called bereavement care and share its a smallish community but we really do understand in many ways.god bless and take care.

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You might have some PTSD I joined that group also. It takes some time be kind to yourself while you heal from trauma. Be patient because anything can be a trigger maybe you need a small notebook like me and just carry it around and write or draw your feelings. Label your feelings respect them and let them move through.

The state you live in might have something called the victims fund this gives you access to a decent therapist for like 6 months and you get a couple work books or coloring books maybe some travel expense depending on how your state is doing.

You write them call them or go in person and explain hey I feel messed up this thing I was a witness too and I feel like not myself. They have a secretary talk to you and maybe evaluate if it’s the states fault or if your a present danger. Then they let you go to a nice therapist. They help more then just this place is fantastic it’s there all day and night but the fancy therapists actually hand you more self work then the state paid Medicaid therapists so I’ve noticed.

Plus your not alone lots of people have been exposed to horrible things humans can be terrible but they are also kind that’s why God keeps us around. Much love and peace in your world

[pink318]

Hello- I’m so sorry to hear that you feel this way.

We are here and we care for you.

Have you tried to seek professional counselling? A support group that meets in person would be useful to help you not to feel alone. I hope you will be comfortable sharing in the forum and you will get the support you need. I pray for God’s peace be upon you and you will stay well. Please keep us posted. God bless.