new member looking for support

[bdorr]

hi everyone, i found this group through google and have been experiencing a pretty awful depressive episode. couldn't drive home last night because i was afraid id hurt myself. just feeling really defeated and lost and alone and wanted to reach out to people who understand. no one in my life gets it. thanks for reading

[Hope1410]

Welcome! First know you are not alone! Despite

What your brain is telling you you are a valuable person. The stigma on mental health sucks. Do you talk to a therapist? I find this helps. Along with support here.

[bdorr in reply to Hope1410]

hello, thank you for your kindness. i saw a therapist this past friday which is why i think it's all catching up to me; ive been able to fake it and after acknowledging how bad im doing i can't ignore it. next appointment is next friday and im just trying to hold on but it feels unbearable, the pain i feel inside.

[Solidrain]

Welcome, you are definitely in the right place. I suffer from depression too and I have found this site to be very open and supportive. Self harm or thoughts of self harm is a scary thing, I get them pretty often too. What are the things you normally do to avoid self harm (if you can?). I’m still learning to cope too

[bdorr in reply to Solidrain]

hello, thank you. both have been on my mind; i am 2+ years free from self harm but had thoughts yesterday. i like painting, hiking, going to parks, but i just have no desire anymore. just want to stay in bed but im going to try and paint today.

[Sunshine425]

Welcome to this site. This site has helped me to never feel so alone again. I hope you can get the support you need to live a happier, healthier life.

Mental health is a battle worth fighting for. Have hope & an open mind and the possibilities will come to you. Ive suffered my whole life, but began a healing journey this past year. Anxiety and emotions get the best of me all the time. But not having to feel so helpless or alone has kept me out of full blown depression like when I was younger.

Take care and best of luck!

[bdorr in reply to Sunshine425]

thank you for the supportive words. im trying to hang in there. one day at a time.

[Sunshine425 in reply to bdorr]

Yes, one day at a time.. its tough, I know.

[NWGal]

I'm so glad you joined us! So many of us here suffer from depression. We know what you're going through. No stigma here! Please continue to tell us how you're doing.

[Sabio77]

bdorr, welcome. you did the right thing by reaching out here. you are not alone. depression is real as the air we breath. I am a survivor of 3 deep depressions, with high level of anxiety and panic attacks. the key is to believe in yourself again. speak positive words into your life in front of a mirror and anywhere you can tell yourself that you can do this. I am stronger than I think I am. a powerful one is to say, this is not the real me. and say, I choose joy. I choose peace. I choose to be positive. these are some of the power words to say to yourself. it really works! focus on you. and your positive talents and hobbies. it is a process. you CAN do this. I believe in you. it is a daily determined mindset to push forward. Hugs of encouragement.