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Callmedanielle
Callmedanielle
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You should have met me

before the anxiety

before the depression

before the abuse

hair almost long

skin almost soft

face almost beautiful

I think you would’ve liked me

I could sing loudly to music in my car without the chemicals of my brain reminding me that everyone I have ever loved will die eventually

I could sip on one too many cups of coffee and warm chocolate without my heart being trained to perfectly imitate a heart attack

You should have met me

before my first breakdown

before the imbalance

my hair almost long

my smile almost full

my face.. almost beautiful

I wore skin so soft that even wind could break it

A voice so quiet you would have to walk inside me to hear it

A girl with a dictionary heart

when you tell her you love her

it could mean:

noun: I set the dinner table for you, i got your favorite book at the library

She would never be able to the difference between two words that sounds alike..

You see me now-

eyes fully opened

skin full of scars

a voice that shakes

a different kind of beautiful

Sometimes I miss her

the girl I was before the war

...... but then I wonder if that girl would have been able to survive it.

sometimes I see her in my dreams, standing at the edge of my door

so polite

so patient

so lonely

I reach for her hand

I tell her

come in, I have so much to tell you

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Starrlight

Woah I so love your writing and as I was reading it seemed like my story too.

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Callmedanielle

🌻💛 glad you love it sweetie

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Syrena1999

Simply wow

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Callmedanielle

🌻💛💛

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LilyAnnepuppy

Powerful. Thanks. I identify.

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Callmedanielle

🌻💛 thank you for taking the time to read it

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Krn210

This is so beautiful! It made me think of myself too.

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Callmedanielle

Thank you 🌻

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Hydeing7373

Muscles do not grow due to lifting weights, it the genesis of being torn down and regenerating into stronger and bigger life form!!

Ur a concrete Rose!! A damn warrior Queen.

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Callmedanielle

These words just made me feel strong thank you sooooo much

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Callmedanielle

A concrete rose, you just gave me a great idea for my next poem

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Callmedanielle

😙🌻💛💛

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Hydeing7373

Truth doesn't always hurt!

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Jeff1943

If you wrote that you are a true bard. Write enough like that and you could earn a living from it. Tell me, are they the lyrics to a song (very Macartney and Lennon) or pure poetry.

Your words moved me.

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Callmedanielle

I wouldn't call it a living but I do make money from writing, there's a site that pay me whenever I post stories or poems. It's poetry

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Jeff1943

I made my living as a wordsmith for 40 years. As a copywriter, as a propagandist. Have you ever considered selling your soul to the devil and becoming an advertising writer. Twenty years ago I'd have given you a job. Everybody's crazy in advertising, it's great.

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Callmedanielle

I'm more of a bibliophile, and yes people in advertising are a little too crazy and controlling for me, I like it how it is now, I post then get paid no pressure

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Jeff1943

One day you will yearn for that pressure. Don't worry about the people controlling you, really you're controlling them. That's the trick.

I did write a novel a few years ago, supposed to appeal to older Brits, in fact most people who bought it were young Yanks. As Chuck Berry said, You never can tell.

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WeWillRise
WeWillRise
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Kind of off topic of this thread, but she could sell her soul to the devil, but he can never take what isn't his to begin with.

Lovely poem, having depression and anxiety I used to write. Not everything is a curse if you look you can find the good the good in it! You have been blessed with the gift of being able to write poetry. Not all can do this, keep using that gift!

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Callmedanielle

Thank you 💛

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Indifferentlycalm

Beautiful

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Callmedanielle

🌻💛💛

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Agora1

Danielle, such heartfelt poetry. I could feel your pain through each

and every word. We may not be able to go back and see who you use

to be but know that the person you've become because of this war is

who we have grown to know and love.

Just beautiful Sunflower. Thank you for sharing a part of your journey :) xx

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Callmedanielle

🌻💛💛💛🌻🌻🌻😙😙😙😙 I love you

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EMB1225

Such a beautiful reading.... Sounds like my daughter's story that I'm trying to fix... it's so hard but God is more powerful he fixes everything.. Loved it!

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Callmedanielle

Having the support of a parent goes a long way, being there for her is a great start 💛🌻

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EMB1225

Thank you! I try my best... :)

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JEG325

I like the you I know now too. Hope you forgave me for that remark that upset you! I would never say anything bad about someone as awesome as you!

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Callmedanielle

I know, it was just a misunderstanding already forgotten dear friend, I know you would never. Love you

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JEG325

Love you too, D!

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Melhall

Love this. But I'm glad to know you now, so strong, so beautiful, so caring. You are a better version of that girl because you survived and can conquer anything now. Now we see the real you. 😏

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Callmedanielle

Thank you so much, you’re right, all of us, we’re stronger than before

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Melhall

🤗

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20Voices

I love this. Thanks for writing.

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Callmedanielle

😘🌻💛💛💛💛

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someone5673

Amazing, I identify with this so much. Your writing is beautiful.

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Callmedanielle

💛🌻🌻 thank you

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Kainan_li

Your writing is exquisite. I get a little teary eyed reading this each time. It penetrates deep into the soul. I think about that person too sometimes...that young, innocent, carefree little boy. You go girl!

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Callmedanielle

💛💛 we have to believe we’re stronger now after everything. Even waking up sometimes is a victory and thank you

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gerrerd

Beautiful people, have been to hell and back ! they then understand ! inner beauty is priceless and we have it in abundance here ! petal xx

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Callmedanielle

🌻💛 we definitely do have it

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gerrerd

You do petal xx

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TopGunGiraffe

this was beautiful and really hit home for me

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Callmedanielle

I know most of us miss our old selves, sending you hugs

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melbrown

Beautiful, strong Sunflower.... wow that is so beautiful... truly touched my soul... wish could give you a huge hug.... we've both have gone through hell at the hands of those who supposedly loved us... we are still beautiful & strong... We are survivors... Thank you much for sharing this Danielle. Love you Sunflower 💛

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Callmedanielle

Thank you Mel I know you and me know what this pain feels like, we’re strong women

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Coloradowalker

Love this. Thank you❤️

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Callmedanielle

Thank you for reading

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Slushy47

Very poetic and insightful

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Callmedanielle

💛

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ellinaki

A true story..beautiful..

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Callmedanielle

💛🌻 thank you

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Vanessa1221

I love this. This is so powerful. Thank you for sharing.

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Callmedanielle

🌻💛💛💛

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bluestars725

So meaningful, and I relate to it in so many ways. Thank you for sharing. 💛

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Callmedanielle

My baybayyyyyy hey sweetheart

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bluestars725

Hi 💛

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hurtingheart1

I love it!! but it is painful reading it as I do feel each word!! I’ve written poems as well to try get out thoughts ,express painful things- when I’ve had no other way at times to let them out-you are inspiring me to try be Courageous & share them maybe sometime also!! Thank you for sharing👏🏼💞🌻by the way I always loved sunflowers as well!!!🌻🌻🌻🌻🦋❣️But Roses were always my very fav!!🌹🌹🌹🌹

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Callmedanielle

I do the same thing that’s why my poems are always painfully sad. I leave my sadness on paper instead of carrying it with me, you should totally share I would love to see

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Olivia40

Just wonderful !

So emotional reading this.

It’s beautiful, in its deeply saddening way..

Should be published !

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Callmedanielle

It’s a nice kind of therapy

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Olivia40

It truly is 💕🌹🌹

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PeachyLisa

Wow...that is powerful girl. I love it ..just like you..

May your day sparkle!

Dump trucks of groovy love, peace, light, joy and hugs!

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Callmedanielle

💛🌻🌻🌻🥰😘😘😘😘 I love the trucks of love

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56artist_

Great poem post beautiful go girl go

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Callmedanielle

Thank you

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Jeff1943

I read it again today, it is an epic poem. If only someone could write the music for it you would have a great song.

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Callmedanielle

That actually is a good idea I might make it longer and post it on my writing page if someone wants it

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Jeff1943

Or you could send it to Paul Macartney or some such and ask them if they would care to set your words to music. Lyrics are only poems set to music. You will reach a wider audience for your poems if they are set to music.

Ching! Ching!

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Callmedanielle

These people get tons of fan mails it might not reach them but i will try , I'm going to finish it tonight, being a ghostwriter sounds great plus if it will reach more people going through similar things that's even better. Yep I'm going to send the other 3 I wrote too

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Callmedanielle

Music is good for the soul

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Jeff1943

Roy Orbison singing 'In Dreams' and Al Bowlly singing 'Blue Moon'. Great lyrics. You may not have heard about Al Bowlly he recorded it in 1935 and died in the Blitz in 1941. Still to be heard on YouTube. Al still has a huge following around the world and there's a recent recorded song about him 'Al Bowlly's in Heaven'. How many other singers in the world had a song written about them?

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mrmonk
mrmonk
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Oh yeah, "Al Bowlly's in Heaven," great Richard Thompson tune.

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Jeff1943
Jeff1943
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Excellent words too, contemporary social comment, also on YouTube. Al Bowlly lives! My parents sat next to him in a restaurant in Leicester Square in 1936!

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thyroidmom84

This line- I could sing loudly to music in my car without the chemicals of my brain reminding me that everyone I have ever loved will die eventually .

That got me, well done.

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Callmedanielle

🌻💛💛💛

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Jeff1943

We have passed this way before, we will pass this way again.

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fragile58

Yes that struck a chord with me too danielle

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fragile58

This touched my heart. Beautiful deep. Ty

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Callmedanielle

🌻💛💛💛 thank you for liking it

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mrmonk

I could imagine this poem being read as a part of the Button Poetry series that can be found on YouTube. The phrasing is just pitch-perfect; I've rarely been so heartbroken by the word "almost." Very well done.

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Callmedanielle

Thank you

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NorwegianWood

I am a songwriter and recognise significant poetic talent. There is great beauty in your writing and thus in your heart. Congratulations on your insight. May you be treasured by all those you know you.

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Callmedanielle

Thank you so much

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Mrspjsmom

Your writing is beautiful and I'm sure you have always been and still are beautiful as well.

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Callmedanielle

🌻💛💛💛 thank you

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Jeff1943

Callmedanielle, if you do decide to turn your poem(s) into lyrics and contact people in the popular music industry then I suggest you put the following on all your submissions:

C 2019 The author asserts her right to copyright.

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