My story

[horsecrazylily]

Hello I’m horsecrazylily and I’m new here. I would like to share part of my story that brought me here today. I have suffered from anxiety and depression as well as bipolar disorder and ptsd I also am diagnosed with adhd and trauma disorder. It’s been a long hard road for me and that road led me into some dark places in my life. I’m pretty young still so I have a lot to learn and a lot to live for but sometimes I just feel like shutting down. It’s hard enough being 21 let alone to have all these disorders and being so different from everyone else. I have always felt like the odd one out in a group but that can get lonely. As I got older I started to get very angry about having to take medications to “be like the other kids”. The more I heard this the less I wanted anything to do with my medications this led me to taking illegal street drugs. I started with weed and then my ex introduced me to Xanax and from there I got myself into a lot of trouble I immediately checked myself into rehab but I didn’t feel like I was an addict I felt like I was numbing the pain of my depression for a long time I went to alcoholics anonymous and narcotics anonymous this didn’t seem to do me much good. The more I thought about it the more I felt like my addiction came from my mental health so I felt that if I ever wanted to get a grip on my addiction I needed to find a way to get a hold of my mental health as well. If anyone has any advice for me I would love to hear it.

[Nicole84]

Well there is no excuse for becoming addicted of something. We just like to think there is some situation that leads us to some actions but in fact no one forced you to try anything. You and just you. I was nicotine and alcohol addicted for 20 years, i became seriously ill because of what i put in my body. But everything has a limit. I tried to give up with the help of medication or professional. Nothing worked. The only thing that worked was my own decision to stop and to gain back the power of my own mind and body. No matter how many diagnosis you have, you are no different then the rest of us. Most of people have some mental problems, many of them they don't even know, like many people have physical problems. Just yourself perceive different while others they might think you are perfect normal. Most of the things take pkace2in our heads more than in the reality. Whatever you wanna numb is just temporary, think if it really worth it. Just stop talking drugs. Start eating healthy, engage in some physical activity, find some hobby and try to live the best of every day.

[Spooky99]

I’ve been in AA a long time. I used alcohol to self medicate. I’m also on antidepressants. You have to take your meds for your mental illness. If you are addicted to something you need to go for help. I do both. I’m still battling depression and anxiety. This has been my whole life. I think many people with mental illness turn to substance abuse for a quick fix! I have plenty of years of sobriety, but when a panic attack occurs, I think about a shot of vodka or something. But it goes away. AA saved my life. Go to the gym , that is helping me! Get out of yourself. I’m volunteering with animals. The more you sit and dwell on it, you feed into it. Everyone suffers from something. You have to be responsible for you. I have dogs that are a great help. I have to take them for walks. My point is find things to do. In my depression I sit on my sofa , eat and watch lifetime all day wishing I wasn’t here. Trust me nobody really cares. Lol. I gained weight and felt sorry for myself. I hope you feel better each day! Please go to your doctor and take your meds. Find a support group ❤️

[Sunshine425]

I would LOVE to get into contact with you..... you can private message me. I am 31 yrs old. With anxiety and ptsd. I always felt alone and exhausted from trying to connect with others. 💔