What in the world am I dealing with? Please help?

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

I just don’t understand what’s happening anymore I feel this horrible feeling of deep dark unexplainable sadness in my chest like someone has died or someone has dumped me. I don’t ever feel like I can access positive feelings or emotions. I feel like I don’t want to go anything but I want to do something? I feel ashamed of being out of work and bring on universal credit. I feel like I’m ugly useless and have been deeply scared by my experiences and am unable to explain how and what I feel to a satisfactory level

[Jeff1943]

Life has been hard for you, Meyer_Gdmnx, and your anxiety has been causing you grief a long time. It will not always be that way, I promise.

The fact that you're out of work and living on universal credits doesn't help either: occupation is good for anxiety and depression. Without it there's just too much time to sit around stressing and obsessing about your mental issues.

I think you are experiencing nervous exhaustion. That's the sadness in your chest. I hope you have the support of your doctor and maybe counselling. Either way, I think you should double your effort to find a job that you like doing and helps you find new friends.It will make a world of difference to how you feel.

I think you should stop thinking so much about all those unhappy symptoms that drag you down. Instead constantly remind yourself they are only feelings and not some deep rooted physical illness. Because they are symptoms of a disturbed nervous system there's no point in trying to cure them. Recovery will come when your nerves return to a more peaceful mode. You see, all your symptoms are down to the over sensitive state your nervous system is in.

So keep telling yourself that your symptoms may be discomforting but they are just FEELINGS. The symptoms they produce are really fake symptoms.

If you can accept them for the time being it will give your nervous system a rest and with time it will become less sensitive. You will feel less exhausted and more motivated, it will be time to get your life on track once more.

I wish you well in your desire to recover and remember you do have a job: it's called finding a job!

[Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to Jeff1943]

Thank you for your reply it was incredibly thoughtful and caring. and I sincerely apologise for the lateness of mine. I just have never dealt with this kind of sadness I suppose having money never used to bother me that much now all of a sudden it does. I just used to think I’ll get a job when I get a job now I’m desperate for one and I’ve got no clue why?

[NeuronerdDoaty]

Try writing some good things down. They don’t have to be your things; just any ole’ good thing. Leave it where you can see it a few times a day. My first page was ‘we have a warm yellow sun’. How boring is that but at least it wasn’t doom and gloom.

I completely agree with Jeff and Buddha. It’s not *what* you do, it’s *that* you do.

I agree that this will give you feelings of worth and stop giving you so much ruminating time.

You’re strong. You can do this.

You know I was a lead Neuro tech in a hospital and to clear my mind I got a second job as a cashier. It was so soothing. I might do it again.

[Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Thank you for your reply it was very helpful as per usual and I’ll certainly try that excellent advice. I just don’t feel at all correct emotionally or mentally like all the normal feelings I had before all this stated have been robed from me