Help please!

[imamonkey]

Hello, I was wondering if someone could help me out. Ever since I was young, I’ve had a bit of a morbid curiosity. When I was five, I would watch this show called “1000 ways to die” and I recall getting upset because they wouldn’t show much gore. I keep getting violent images/situations in my head. Although I really don’t like looking/watching gore/ violent things, I get this strong urge to, and usually have to to relieve it. I used to fantasize about killing/hurting my family members. I used to abuse animals when I was younger. I was also verbally, sexually, mentally abused from the age of 7 to 11. I get really paranoid sometimes as well. I know I should consult a doctor, but I was just wondering if anyone had the same problems and could help me out.

[kenster1]

hi im no therapist or any type of professional but it may well be linked to you childhood but you really need to seek proper support for that.to me you abusing animals was a way of taking out your frustration and anger for what happened to you but its not the poor animals fault just like it wasn't yours.i could tell you a story about a friend but I wouldn't be doing on here only in pm.make that appointment and talk it over get the help/support you deserve.

[Mary-intussuception]

Please see a professional urgently. You got this far . . . now take the next step.

Don't stop until you get the professional help you need. Start with your doctor and go from there. Be fully truthful - as you have here.

I'm guessing your earliest memory is when you were 5 ? You need healing for whatever went on before then, even though you may not remember.

How old are you now?