Morning blues

[Wishingforhappiness]

Last night I couldn't sleep. So per usual I just watched shows and movies to distract me from my own thoughts. I finally was able to fall asleep around 6:30 am. But of course because of that I have only gotten about 5 hours of sleep, if that. Last night I was feeling slightly better before I fell asleep. Like I could beat this depression. But yet again another day has come and beat me down before I even get up. I'm tired of having to get up and work and pretend everything is alright, to use all my energy to do make money so I don't sleep on the street. But I don't have a choice. All I know is in the mornings all I wish is that I had my own space and that I could just sleep all day and night with no one bothering me so I can sleep. Sleep is where I'm no longer hurting usually. I'm just getting really tired of waking up and trying so hard when all it feels like is that all I'm doing everyday is failing at life and failing my family and failing myself all over again...everyday.

[LookingforSunrise]

I know this feeling all to well. I want to feel somewhat normal again. But the only thing that helps me with that is klonopin and that is not sustainable medication. Wish I could feel normal without so many drugs. I do yoga which helps somewhat. There are lots of youtube videos on yoga for anxiety and some are quiet good. I also distract myself with shows.

[Flor1]

I feel the same every day, I am so tired