Dead inside

[Fatima_sh]

I hate myself so much right now.

I see no future for myself ... I seriously feel dead inside.

[Notme2]

There is always hope and you do have a future! Life is dynamic and ever changing. Circumstances and issues that you may face today will not be the same tomorrow. It may feel like there's no hope but that's because it difficult to think clearly in these type of situations. You may hate yourself for now but there are tons of people who love you, and who want you to do better and feel better! Try to find some help, speak to someone, go to a counsellor or doctor, and surround yourself with people who care about you. these issues need to be addressed ASAP.

[Fatima_sh in reply to Notme2]

Thank you so much for the helpful advice. I’ll se a therapist as soon as possible ❤️

[argh52]

The inability to feel hope is perhaps the most cruel symptom of depression. Seeing no hope and feeling dead inside is how we all feel in the depths of our disease. It's so hard not to hate yourself for feeling this way. It's not you, it's your disease. Do you have anyone to talk to? Have you considered medication? In the meantime, we're here. What's going on? Wanna talk about it?

[Fatima_sh in reply to argh52]

Thank you so much for your kind words, and sorry I didn’t get back to you sooner.

I don’t know what was going on at that time, but I do feel like that a lot. The feeling of being worthless, not having a future, feeling confused and lost.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

Are you seeing professionals for your depression? Are you on meds? Don’t believe there is no hope. Believe, even if at the moment you cannot see.

[Fatima_sh in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

I’m not seeing any professionals. I want even diagnosed with depression, but I do feel like the world is crumbling down sometimes. It’s weird ... it’s either my emotions are so over the top, or I’m emotionless. It’s like there’s no balance.

[lillyofthevalley37]

May I suggest you look into flaxseed oil capsules they will be good for your depression and your chrons

[Fatima_sh in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

I will look into that. Thank you for your suggestion

[NWGal]

Oh I totally get where you're coming from sweetie. Last fall I felt that too. I also felt I had no purpose. I found a good therapist and it really helped. Good karma coming your way!

[Fatima_sh in reply to NWGal]

Thank you ❤️

I hope I can find a therapist that I feel comfortable with.

[sunandbutterfly]

So sorry for the way that you are feeling. As others have mentioned, it might be a good idea to see your primary care provider or a counselor.

Maybe some of these resources would be helpful for you? list.ly/list/1CE4-looking-u...

Know that you can get through this.

[Fatima_sh in reply to sunandbutterfly]

Thank you so much for your help. I appreciate it ❤️

[Kainan]

You never know what life has in store for you. And for some, that means hope; for others, it leads to anxiety and dread. The point is, there is no point in looking to the future and trying to anticipate it. It will only be a disservice to you. The most important time is now. Only with the present moment can you effectively deal with your internal and external environment. The moment is now. A saying I always repeat to myself is: "The best preparation for tomorrow is by doing your best today." See what I mean. You can only control what happens right now. Thinking there is salvation or the opposite in the future is a waste of time. I know you can get through this; it's only a matter of perspective. All the best to you

[Saraia]

Find something you think is important/ interested in and put all your energy in that and doing good, ...it pushes the dead feeling away