Mentally suffocating for a while .... loneliness.....social anxiety....also triggers my depression problems.....crying for a long time......

[Dreamer468]

Hi everyone

It's been a long time since I posted something. Things are getting better step by step. My depression problems are not over yet, it's the hardest one. The social anxiety is getting worse. My only relief is that OCD problems are subsiding slowly. I'm relieved a little now. My daily activities are going great as compared to the past.

But the main problem is social anxiety which gets related with the depression problems.Today I felt crushed by everyone around me mentally. I've been suffocating mentally all day. Everyone is having fun.....except me...... I know Im different and i should not try to become something I'm not........But, WHAT THE FUCK did I do to face these mental torture..... when I talk to someone, they leaves in few seconds. I make a lot of efforts and they just leaves, Its quiet painful for me. How long should i live....... Will there be even a single FUCKING Solution???????? I've never been this pissed!!!!!!!!!

Guys, I'm literally crying all day. I've blend between everyone to hide my tears....... I'm helpless........I'm alone......I'm socially awkward,silent,straight forward......... what should I do guys..........

[9Aurelius]

Just know your not alone! I often feel like the dumbest person in the room. I feel out of place all the time. I feel like I just don’t belong in this world. I wish I could enjoy life. Maybe we just care too much what people think. If we did not care what other people thought then what ?

[Dreamer468 in reply to 9Aurelius]

Thank you for your advice. But things are extremely hard. I'm losing hope day by day. I've been made fun by seniors in college, friends avoids me, girls dont talk even if I talk to them. I've been fed up of this. But I've 2 and half years more to finish my degree. How am I going to survive it?? I'm again started to think about killing myself........ how long should I survive without a bit of solution......

[Sunshine425]

Please do not give up hope! Please msg me anytime<3 I have been where you are.... I promise. I am 31 years old and feel like I survived 7 years of mental torture. If you give up now, you could miss out on the best years of your life... I never felt worthy of having any happiness. I nearly gave up on life many times. As I got older I saw things differently. Can I just say?.... fuck the people that dont want to see you suceed! People are so selfish and stuck up. Especially in school. I got bullied in college something I thought could never happen... but I stayed in my own corner even though I felt super alone.. you can get through! Sending love and positivity!

[Dreamer468 in reply to Sunshine425]

Thanks Dreamer720 for your support....its a hard fact.......its always painful..... I hope it would get better.....

[Sunshine425 in reply to Dreamer468]

💕Love your new username, we are twining!☺️

It is VERY painful. It is not easy. And I know right now it feels like there is no end to the suffering. But just hang on. You can build a support system on here. I promise you have people on here that will listen. We will guide you, if you need any support.

[Dreamer468 in reply to Sunshine425]

Thank you Dreamer720 for your support......I hope everything will become alright.....best wishes to you on your journey too....

[Dolphin14]

Focus on your education.

Do you have someone you can talk to about this? A therapist? A good friend? Family?

Don't give up. Dig for the strength inside you and show people what you have. You are important and you are unique. You have the right to be happy.

One way to get through this is by giving it all you've got and finishing school. Don't let others take things away from you.

There are so many supportive people here. Keep reaching out. You don't have to be alone.

[Dreamer468 in reply to Dolphin14]

Thanks for your advice.........I'm hoping for the best.....

[Sunshine425]

Ditto to what dolphin14 said as well!