I don't even know what to name this

[dbeck128]

I was jw if anyone else wakes up with suicidal ideation.

For some reason, I do.. it's always been this way. Lately my depression sucks bad. Nothing in life seems to be going right. I dont even know what direction to turn at this point.

And yes. I've gone to the doctor. But have came to the realization I'll be fighting this crap all my life. What's the point. I'm always everyone's last choice. I have no life out side of work. I'm not motivated to get out of the house.

I don't even know.

I'm just.. tired of doing this

[dontknow26]

Yes, I do. Not every day. But especially on the weekends when I don’t have work to keep me distracted. I, too, am coming to accept that this may be a lifelong battle. Just like someone with diabetes for instance, just less socially acceptable. I don’t know how long you’ve lived like this but here are some suggestions in case you’re somewhat new. Diseases untreated WILL progress.

-get a good doctor

-get a good therapist

-tell a friend/family member/co-worker

-join a 12 step program

-go outside!

If you believe in God, trust Him. This is your journey. It may not be what you wanted it to look like, but it’s yours. You are unique and special and there is a plan for you! (this was as much a pep talk for myself as it was for you - haha)

[Readerino]

You’re not alone. I have been really having a hard time with the “what’s the point” question lately.

[Hidden]

I just figured out that jw stands for just wondering. It took me all day but I finally figured it out. I was in bed just about to fall asleep when it hit me. So I had to come here and share that. I know it’s silly but it was driving me crazy all day. I originally thought it meant Jehovah witness. So yeah that’s my whole day lol