Everyday is a struggle

My days usually start off good, then turn to crap at night. Idk what it is, but every day this week, my mornings have been fantastic and productive, then at night, someone or something says "freak you"(ahh swearing lol) and leaves my heart saddened and my mind in a freak this and freak that mood. It just sucks and idk what else to do😞

[Amz1987]

So sorry you’re feeling like this.

Do you take any meds to help you?

I think when the night comes and you’re alone with your thoughts that’s when it gets hard as in the day you have your mind busy with other things (for me that is often the way)

[BrainFog-Ninja]

That cycle sounds like my partner at night...and def the freakin this freakin that...about whatever he thinks is an “injustice” or somehow hurting him, or his views. Although, I will say that the last few months have been better. I think it helped that we identified that he is “allergic” to politics and the news. Lol. Maybe you have similar triggers, that cause more problems than do good?

He is very politically tuned & even seems self-tortured about it. I think he deflects/projects his feelings about other things into politicals, tv, commercials, telemarketers calling, idiot people, the dog barking...whatever it may be that erks him. Something (usually tv related) starts winding him up...and tic-toc-boom! He goes and goes until he has had enough, I guess. As an onlooker, it seems like some kind of grown “man tantrum.”

Possibly it is easier, or more acceptable, to release general angry/frustration feelings—if they are about politics, or the news, or commercials? Maybe the anger has to be attached, or have a specific reason, and that makes sense to him.

I can sometimes remind him that everything doesn’t always have to be the matter. Or say don’t start that with yourself tonight...you know how it ends.

My general rule is...when things start looking very “bleak” and my perception shifts way to the negative—it’s time for bed, before it gets worse. Lol. Maybe try to save your great day...by going to bed sooner...when it first starts welling-up?

Acknowledging the issue is a big step—maybe thinking about the whys and whens would help you take some steps to change it....and/or consider getting meds on board to make it so that changing it is an option even.