I found this article about Summertime S.A.D. (Seasonal Affective Disorder).
tesh.com/articles/are-you-s...
It was nice to know I wasn't alone. Typically it's the coming on of winter that brings people into their depressions. However, for me, my whole life, my depressions would come on as Spring began. And summertime? Forget it. It's hard to even leave the house. I live in Manhattan so I can't hide in my big puffy winter coat. My anxieties that bring on sweat causes me to be drenched by the time I reach the subway. And the sun. I live across from the Hudson River so thankfully, the sun stays away come morning. But the afternoon...it lights up this apartment even with the blinds closed until almost 8 o'clock at night. My mother and I recently moved here so no curtains as of yet - just those cheap blinds that come with the apartment. So trying to relax and cool down after being out all day suffering with nervousness and panic is near impossible. My anxiety causes me headaches. Especially when it's hot. Therefore, the big bright sun doesn't help.
I count the days until the cooler and colder weather returns. Is there anyone else who feels this way??