Terrible breakdown

[watmann8]

Yesterday I found out that a person I love betrayed me and lied to me. I had a huge breakdown. I couldn’t stop hysterically crying for an hour, so my neighbors called the police. I am better now, but I got an additional feeling of guilt to allow myself to get crazy that way. So I have a question how do you cope with any overwhelming situations? Or how do you cope with stressful situations? How do you cope with pain inside? I am trying meditation to train my brain to resist stress, but it probably will take some time while I will get the proper result.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

I’m no doctor just a human being so take what I say with a grain of salt. What makes you think that being betrayed and lied to by a loved one would produce a different reaction? It was only yesterday you received an emotional, mental, physical blow. Loss is terrible. That’s why we grieve. And it takes me a long time, and a lot of help to deal with pain and sorrow. I admire your search for coping ideas, to me that is a positive sign. But standing still and hurting is not one of my easier actions. Running away from my pain always seems preferable, but doesn’t work. Take care, and be gentle with yourself.

[watmann8 in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Thank you for your kind words, LilyAnnepuppy. I think I feel that bad because I lost control over my emotions which in my little village is not socially unacceptable. I feel ashamed. I though that since I am in my room no one will hear me, but there were a lot of worried people. I appreciate it, but it feels that I crossed some unwritten social rule and everyone thinks that I am crazy.

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to watmann8]

People have thought I’m crazy for most of my life. But keep in mind the immortal words of Billy Joel, “You May be right. I may be crazy. But it just may be a lunatic you’re looking for.” I’m fortunate that I have friends who merely see me as “a character.”

[watmann8 in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Yeah, but unfortunately for me it has legal consequences - police, who still reports such stuff as domestic disturbance or reports it somehow anyway. And I am not local so I will be always kicked out for such things if they pop up.

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to watmann8]

Sorry to hear that. I am indeed blessed living where I live.