Samaritans helpline

[ribby]

As you can see below I called the helpline. I just wanted to say that this is the Samaritans helpline. Unless you want to kill yourself they were only talking to you for 10 minutes. They tell you you can call back and talk to someone else but when you do that pages here probably another operator that you were just on the phone with them and they tell you to call back at another time.I called because I felt hopeless I still feel hopeless and the last thing I needed was someone on that line telling me I’m sorry I have to go now. It’s cold and callous and if I were someone who is contemplating suicide I would probably do it right now. So Samara JENNINGS is not so great

[Hidden]

I am very sorry this has happened. that does sound terribly disheartening. Hold on the best you can. you are not alone in this world, i too feel hopeless at times. you have more worth and potential for better day than your mind wants to let you see. Depression does very well at hiding our hope and good memories. im here for you if you need someone right now, please stay strong( as strong as you can be in this dark time)

[ribby in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Toshy. I appreciate your kind words. I don’t know if you’re in the UK or in the US. If you’re in the US you may have called the Samaritans line before. They’re mostly for suicidal people. But I’ve called some times in the last few months just to talk. At some point they say oh well I have to go now and it feels very hurtful. They should I have moreCall lines like this so people have more choices of where to call. I don’t know I just feel hopeless because I’ve tried every medication and I’ve tried every depression treatment and none of them have worked. I recently started smoking again too. It’s such a disgusting habit.

[Hidden in reply to ribby]

Yes, they did not help much for me either, i barely remember the conversation due to the state i was in at the time, but i know after the call i still wasn’t anywhere near okay. I haven’t tried every depression treatment as you have, but i found little relief in medication. Fluoxetine helped me for a while, but the dosage was just increased almost every time i saw my psychiatrist(because it was apparent i was still depressed) and after the last increase, it actually brough back my suicidal thoughts. At that point i slowly stopped taking the medication, with the help of a therapist, and she began helping me work on my mind instead of using meds.. i am not a doctor so i cannot recommend this. And i can say the meds helped me through a very dark time, but once i was out of the darkness they seemed to keep me down and make me numb to all emotions. I hope you can find your way, make sure to keep talking to a therapist or psychiatrist when things are bad, like they are now. and do your best to stay strong. in the least know that there are people here who care

[Aardbark]

Wow, I find your story very sad & disheartening. I wish I could give you my phone number and tell you to call anytime. The fact is my phone is off at work and when I'm asleep. I wouldn't be reliable either. When I was severely suicidal, I found one entity that was always available, which was God. I prayed and found my answer and got properly diagnosed. I asked (prayed) if I should just kill myself or enter a psychiatric hospital. It's 12 years later and I'm happier than ever. I'll pray for you.

[ribby in reply to Aardbark]

I’m so glad you found something that makes you feel better. There’s nothing new for me to try so please be happy with your outcome.

[All_alone]

I called them once about 8 yrs ago and had the same sad experience. I think I actually felt worse after the call then before. Which is very sad for someone who needs to reach out at that moment. They just kind of blew me off.....

[hypercat54]

This is very bad and you shouldn't be treated like that. I don't know about in the USA but in the UK they are all volunteers, and my sister who worked for it told me they never do this. But this was a few years ago so maybe this has changed. Interestingly she also said that about 1 in 4 calls from men were from pervs who when a woman answers start talking dirty. If they didn't so this they would have more time to spend with those who need it.

The sad fact with mental health is that there is very little help as everyone is too busy and services are continually being cut. I rang up an out of hours helpline number a few years ago coz I was feeling suicidal. The guy talked for a minute or 2 then abruptly said he had to go as he was on his own and was very busy. I felt worse afterwards and ended od'ing. It's basically these days get on with it coz we don't care. I determined never to 'bother' them again regardless of how I was feeling. x

[ribby in reply to hypercat54]

Oh that’s all very horrible. I’m so sorry. From what I’m hearing it’s almost better to not have the call line at all. It just makes people feel worse. Maybe there should be a motivational website or something.

[hypercat54 in reply to ribby]

Too right A good site I have used a few times is 7 Cups of Tea. There are untrained but volunteer counsellors there and you can rattle away to online for a long as you want. Don't ever mention the word suicide though otherwise they will just cut you off as they can't deal with that. It can be quite cathartic though. x

[NeuronerdDoaty]

That’s awful. I’m feeling bad in my gut just reading that. This is worse than not calling. Go to the hospital I guess. I’m horrified by this type of treatment.

[ribby]

In the US going to the hospital can sometimes be a traumatic experience. I’ve been to three. Two were good and one was like minimum security jail where a 6 foot 9 guy grabbed my butt and I was too afraid to tell anyone. That place was bad. Sometimes I think I should go to the hospital and then I don’t go because they took me off of all my medications at the first one and I have medicine that I want to stay on. Controlled medications that I may not be able to get prescribed again like Ritalin and Clonopin. So I don’t go. I just suffer.

[Mary-intussuception]

So sorry you are suffering ribby

xXx

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Wish I could come over and give you a big hug x 🐥

[ribby in reply to Mary-intussuception]

Thank you so much. The only thing I haven’t tried for depression yet is Vagas Nerve Stimulation. My health insurance doesn’t cover it and it costs $35,000. I’m trying to get into a study so I can get it for free. It’s the only thing I haven’t tried yet.

[sunandbutterfly]

So sorry for the way that you were treated and all that you have been through. Have you tried the crisis text line (741741), the Hope Line, or asked your psychiatrist about a support group? The extra support might be helpful. Hope that you are feeling better today.