Done With It All...

[Photographyanimal]

I’m so done with everything in this fucking miserable life. I now know that I am not important to anyone. I care about people that don’t give a damn whether I’m here or not. I’ve loved with all my heart and soul and was thrown away like a fucking rag doll. If people actually cared about me, than they would show it. But that’s not the case. So why fucking try? It is so hard to stay together and be happy in front of people. I’m tired. I can’t do it anymore. I can’t pretend anymore. I hate my life and I hate that I hate it. But you know what, it is what it is. Nothing will every change...

[Magicdreamer]

You're allowed to feel what you feel. I get you. The only way to start making yourself happy is to stop relying on others to make you happy. It's a scary thought knowing nobody is coming to save you but yourself. The more you focus on making others happy, the more miserable you become. I'm walking the same path so I completely get ya! I've stopped focusing outward and I work on it each day.... You deserve love.... Your own love... I'm trying daily to stop depending on others for acceptance. To me it's like throwing money away in the toilet. Xxx

[Phoenix2012]

Hello, its difficult to find words to say, simply saying that I've felt the same in the past may not be enough or what you need to hear. Living is hard and so is dying. I have tried both...its better to live, even when its painful, so painful that you feel alone and that nobody cares. The reality is that others do care, whether they show it or not. I have tried so hard in so many ways to please others and to help others. At one point in my life others were what I lived for. I hated who I was but didn't know how to change. It might sound like a cliche but getting help was the best thing that happened to me. I was on 5150 hold but I was around others who felt the same. The patients there helped me see myself for who I was. The staff there helped me see who I could become, the possibilites life could bring and where I could go. I was in a bad place but got help to change things. There have been lots of struggles, stress, depression, anxiety, fear, etc since then. It's not easy. But it is worth it. My goal in life is still to help others but not at the expense of myself. I'm still learning to love myself and take care of myself. There are people out there who care about you and who understand what you feel.

[UFC80]

I am like this also,but I have learned over the years that this is not a healthy thing, or a balanced way to live life. You can be a very loving person of others family and friends, but you cannot expect a guaranteed return! This doesn't mean your a bad person. People are different in many ways. If gaining others attention and affection is highly important to you then ,this is an issue of self esteem, validation and Depression! I think you sound very depressed. I am also, and like I said I struggle with this and sometimes do seek Validation. Like the others here have said, it's up to ourselves to make us Happy! We require help through Therapy and Support! Please seek more! ☺

[Jeff1943]

You have been given good advice here, Photographyanimal. You're going through a bad phase, luck has deserted you for the moment. With persistence and staying power it will return to you and you will come to know the joy of life, I promise you.

If people don't give a damn then dismiss them as fools and move on. Their loss.

We are all evolving to a higher form, unfortunately this only happens through adversity. Not for ever by still waters, nobody said it was going to be like a holiday camp.

So I repeat, this is a bad patch, you will not feel like this for the rest of your life. Hold on and new openings will come your way, that is always how it goes.

I hope those new opportunities for a better life are not so long in coming.

[gleason9guy]

Well said. I think I understand. Have been through a lot, and going through even more now. But just keep going.

[LiveandLetLive42]

I’ve learned that it’s not that people don’t care; most people either don’t understand how bad mental illness is and are afraid to be apart of it or they are struggling themselves with something. I’ve thought for the longest time that my cousin who I consider a sister was purposely keeping her distance from me and didn’t care about me that I’m suffering so much; however, I found out that she’s been struggling with very bad headaches and has been keeping it private. You just never know what’s going on with someone. And there’s no comforting excuse to us for those who know we are suffering and hurt us anyway. But, there is comfort in knowing there’s other people who do care and are there for you! These days everyone is battling something and life is hard! But you gotta find purpose and things that make you happy. You’re certainly not alone that’s for sure! I think a lot of people feel this way. And we get to that point sometimes where we just want to give up. At this point, it’s time to make changes. I wish you all the best! We’re all here for you and understand exactly how you feel 💗

[mira99]

Hi I know exactly how you feel I have lost my dad the only person who loved me no matter what then lost the love of my life who threw me away like trash, so what does that make me! I feel guilt for wanting out when there are so many people fighting hard to stay here because they have family and friends who live them, why can’t we swap! But yet I am not ready to end it something will not let me it wants me to stay and whether this is some twisted game and it will never improve or perhaps there is better coming??? We won’t know unless we give it time