Scared

[calicat]

Lately my boyfriend has been really hurting from a muscle strain in his abdomen/back. He finally went to the doctor and got it confirmed along with a prescribed muscle relaxer to take at night to help him sleep while it heals. He took it for the first time tonight and woke up around 1am in a lot of pain, slurring his speech, being very out of it. It really scared me and not to be selfish as I know he’s in a lot of pain, but it really triggered a lot of anxiety for me. He wanted to go to the ER but I tried to calm him down first. He finally did and now I’m left wide awake in a panicked state. I don’t know why I’m ever sharing this other than to possibly get some comforting words as I have many times on here. My stomach is currently in knots and I can’t relax.

[Kat63]

It’s hard when someone very close to you is sick or has a big problem. It’s normal to be scared. There’s a scared little kid inside all of us, and sometimes when there’s a triggering event, that scared little kid inside us completely takes over.

This happened to me a few years ago, when my bf got sick. My sane, rational, adult mind wanted to help him and be unselfish. But the scared little kid in me was stronger, and could only think about whether I was safe or not. This caused damage to the relationship. I wish I could rewind back in time and get to my scared little kid inside, and help her before she caused the damage.