today I’m just in a bad mood for no reason. It’s not uncommon for me to have days like this but when they happen , everything is just really difficult.
I’m proud of what I did do today though.
I got out of bed and got ready for the day even though I really wanted to just stay there.
I called and left a message about a new job opportunity.
I will say that stress is also a role in my mood today.
My current job has been taking my shifts away and only giving me 9 hours a week. I cannot survive that way when I have rent, bills, groceries and starting this month student loans to start paying.
Hoping to hear back from the place I applied to tomorrow.
I feel lonely as well. I won’t talk to the person I want to spend time with about it though because it will only make him feel bad given his own situation with very strict parents and not being to go to the store even.
His parents are a lot like how mine were when I was living at home. Sadly , moving out for him isn’t an option because they have control of everything.
I wish I would just hug him though. Maybe sometime soon.
As for the night, I’ll probably just give in and let time wash away.
In the Black community having these issues are tough 
When the going gets tough, take care of you.
Having a tough time 
Just having a tough time 
New here - Tough start to the year
