My name is Joyce, I'm twenty-two years old, I'm from Brazil.
I'm here again asking for help I'm deepening in a well with no return, I'm not happy, I'm suffering a lot, as I said in an email that I sent before being a victim of sexual abuse four times as a child, I lost my I had to learn to be alone , I lost my childhood because of abuse, I lost part of my life when my father died, I lost my adolescence when I got married very early, my mother never cared for me, I grew up without caring, without attention, without someone to feel safe, I got married at age 16, thinking that my suffering would soften, thinking that I had found a good person, but it was not like that, I have a four year old son, my husband humiliates me because I do not have the financial conditions , because I have nowhere to go, because I do not have a family that supports me like his, I can not bear to suffer anymore, I wanted to end this pain, I've been married for six years, being able to be cursed by the poor, and several other horrible things, several times he c love me drunk and when I went to ask him where he was he got angry and pushed me had times that even I attacked, one of them he pierced my head with the key of the car and punched me in my nose that made me bleed a lot on my head and nose, and my son did not see me bleeding I ran to the bathroom and I was scared and crying, I was depressed since my father died and after I got married only worsened the post depression -party, I tried to take my life I took a pack and a half of antidepressant and stayed in the hospital for three days, the depression every day only worsens I feel nothing, I do not want to eat, nor leave, every day I'm locked alone in the bedroom, I have no family, I have no one, I do not feel like living