Feeling happy

[Carmencp]

I go to therapy and take medication. Im lost and at my age i thought i would be sometmone so different. I know all or nothing thinking. But its hard to think of what makes me happy when im not.

[explorerPHX]

i can totally relate to what you are talking about. i too find it difficult to think of what makes me happy when i am not. and i definitely thought i would be something else by this point in my life ... and i am so far off that

[Carmencp in reply to explorerPHX]

Thank you it helps to know that I'm not alone. This illness makea you feel like you are.

[explorerPHX in reply to Carmencp]

it definitely does make you feel like you are ... really isolating.

[Bonbontree]

Hi Carmencp. I am in the same situation. Mom of three. I’m so lost and I don’t know how Ingot to be 39 and feel so confused about who I am and I can’t be happy. New to this journey and not sure. Going to first therapy session today.

[Carmencp in reply to Bonbontree]

I know its hard to see the big picture. Im going through menapause and my husband and i are separated. So stressors make it harder. Good luck today.

[seekjoydaily]

First of all, I'm glad to hear that you are going to counseling and taking meds. That is a first step to dealing with these feelings. Have you just started with counseling and meds or have you been doing this for awhile? Do you journal at all? That seems to help me especially with the racing thoughts and helps me clarify and think more clearly. What are some small steps you can take each day to get to your version of "Happy?" What does that look like for you? You might even think of making a "vision board" with pictures of things/people/places that make you happy. Sometimes it helps me to put post-its throughout the house with positive comments. I have a sign that says "Gratitude turns what you have into enough" and "Pray Hard" Sometimes it helps to surround yourself with happy thoughts. Wishing you all the best!

[Carmencp in reply to seekjoydaily]

Ive been dealing with this for awhile now. Ive been on Paxil for 20 years. My anxiety started when i was 15. Usually around hormonal issues. So now going thru menapause and its kicking my butt a little. Husband and I are separated as well. So just dealing with some stess. It im going to try some of your techniques. Doing meditation so that helps as well. Thank you

[omelas]

I understand the feeling. What’s wonderful about life is that we get to choose who we want to be. Since I’ve become depressed I have become apathetic at times, but I’ve learned to roll with it. Sometimes I’m out with friends and feeling that everything is pointless when I think ‘oh well if everything is pointless then I can just dance and yell or say something dumb right now...’ and I do. & it makes me feel better and makes others laugh. My advice is to just roll with who you are — if it’s not being a public embarrassment like i’ve come to enjoy then find what it is that makes life a little less disappointing

[Carmencp in reply to omelas]

When feeling anxiety and depression its hard to see the light. Actually this support group has helped me a lot. All the feed back i get is so great. I feel like i can say what i am feeling and im understood. Thank you

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I have a similar struggle and have felt encouraged by this group as well.

Take care!