Feeling trapped and lonely

[Sam_Walker]

Hi,

I hope you are all okay 💗

I’m so tired of trying to get better. I feel so guilty for not doing enough to help myself and I don’t understand why I still feel like this after trying to get better. I feel so alone and trapped. I’ve stopped going to high school because of my panic attacks so I don’t see my friends anymore and I feel like nobody understands. I know I have to help myself but I can’t do it alone. In September I started getting into Spirituality but I just don’t have the energy to make myself practice meditation or anything and I feel like I’m letting myself down. I feel like people care enough to keep me alive but not to help be be happy. I know that’s not true. And I feel so selfish and self-absorbed. I just don’t know what to do anymore.

Thank you for reading 💗🙏🏼

Sending peace, love and healing to everyone

[Agora1]

Sam, you are right in that knowing what needs to be done and applying it to yourself

can make all the difference in the world. Meditation is not an overnight success. It is

a spiritual healing within yourself that takes time, practice and application. First of all,

you are not selfish or self absorbed. It comes with the territory of mental illness. It is a

lonely disorder that makes us feel trapped because of the fear we have in breaking that

cycle.

From the words of Dr. Claire Weekes, "Acceptance" is the key to eliminating anxiety

and panic in our lives. Not being afraid in allowing it to come over us but go forward

anyway. You know that people do care about you but as for finding happiness, you are

the only one who can do that for yourself.

Don't be hard on yourself, don't allow anxiety to control you. As difficult as it may be, don't fight it, you'll never win like that. We each have something that works for us. It's

a matter of finding what the best tool is. I use YouTube as a teaching experience for

myself. You need to get focused on different methods that may in the long run work for

you. My best to you Sam. Don't give up but don't stay stuck either. xx

[higherpurpose]

I applaud you for knowing and accepting that you need help. That is very courageous of you and thank you for sharing that. It is never selfish to take time for ourselves, it is a necessity for our well-being. Have you considered talking to a trusted professional counselor? It may be beneficial for you because a therapist can walk with you on this journey. You don't have to be alone, there are people who genuinely care and a therapist is one of those people. I hope you feel better soon. You deserve to be happy, that is not selfish. Take care.