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[Purple-Monkey]

Hi guys,

I think i might be suffering from post natal depression, all the signs are there but i just don't know how to deal with it. It could be something more serious..

i've always been an introvert and have some level of social anxiety. i graduated with a masters'degree a couple of years ago and still don't have a job mainly because i feel i lack confidence. Its been very stressful seeing all my peers succeed and me still at home job seeking with no clear direction in life. I wake up some days wondering if i really have a purpose in life..other days i feel motivated.But this never really lasts more than 2 days at the very least, It's pretty much a tug of war in my head.

Not so long ago i gave birth to a beautiful baby and i am finding it very difficult to have balance in my life..its so frustrating. i am getting great support from my family but I still feel lost and undeserving.

At this point, i don't even feel like trying with anything anymore. But the thing is I really want to overcome this and make something of myself. I am almost 30 but have nothing much to show for.

The combination of all these feelings are what make me feel depressed...it feels so frustrating that i have great support from my family but my mind set is holding me back. I've tried everything to change it and focus on being a better version of myself but i cant help but have negative thoughts which then manifest into self doubt and low self esteem

* sigh *

[Hidden]

Hi there...welcome to the site...you'll love it! I so can relate to how you feel...went through 2 pnd's myself...30 years ago....sounds just like how I felt...go get yourself help...please...it's worth it...so are you..there's only one you..makes you very special! I'm here for you..be kind to yourself...

Dump trucks of love, peace, light, joy & hugs!!!

[hypercat54]

Nothing much to show for it? You must be joking! Having a baby and partner is a fantastic achievement and something I never managed. You are amazing.

As for PND then please seek help from your doctor. I read somewhere that the majority of new mums feel this to a certain degree so it is nothing to be ashamed of. x

[JkBauer]

Hello Purple- Monkey,

I am sorry that you are feeling like you have no purpose in your life. I just want to let you know you are not alone. There are many,many ladies out here in the same boat as you right now. It sounds like you have great family and friend support. That is wonderful! Not a lot of people have that. You have a beautiful baby who needs her mother- congratulations! Have you thought about getting out and volunteering in the area you are most interested in or have your Masters in?

Do you have anything to keep you busy? Half of the battle is finding something to keep your mind focused. Make a plan, follow through and continue on. There is a passage in the bible that helps me a lot, I have it written on a recipe card and taped up on my bathroom mirror. Philippians 4:8

..."Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy- think about such things."

I hope this helps!