why can't I cry

[purl1]

Having another bad day. stuck in this house again. I am so tired of feeling like this. I just want to cry but I can't my body won't let me. I think I would feel better if I could just let it out somehow. I don't know if it's the meds that are doing it or what. I am having a really hard time these past few days. I am so depressed and I don't think my dr is doing enough for me. I see a therapist every week and I do feel better after seeing him, but it never lasts. I have such a hard time getting up everyday because I know what my day will be like. I need to find a way out of this. somehow there has to be a way out. I don't know how much longer I can live like this. It scares me to think like that. I have a family that needs me to be here for them. I just don't feel like I'm really present anymore. I'm just an empty shell. I hate theway I am now. This has happened to me all because I was laid off ( nice way of firing me). I feel like such a failure. I had the perfect job and I blew it. I will never find another that will pay me as much as I got there. I had it made and I ruined it.

[JAYnLA]

I have an odd thing where I rarely cry unless I'm with another person who I feel safe with. I don't know if that's what's going on with you, but maybe? As for your job, I don't know the specifics but even if you did 'blow it', it's not the end of the story. As long as we're here, things can improve and new opportunities can arrive.

[Coralrose5]

Purl, I know you had a great job but you’ll get another one that will propel your life forward. It will

give you something to get up for and then you can slowly build your life back up. I am also at home today and feel somewhat trapped. I understand. Please feel free to message me if you want to chat more. ❤️