Why can't I snap out of this?

Hi, I am new here. I was hospitalized in February for depression and anxiety. I followed up that stay with a great outpatient program. I was really feeling like i could get a handle on things and get back to living ....then COVID hit. I take care of my elderly parents who have numerous health issues. So I felt I had to stop going to group because I was putting them at risk. I feel so alone and isolated. I had a phone conversation with a therapist I had pre- hospital stay-- she is kind but doesn't really help like group did. I don't know what to do. The idea of meeting a new therapist through skype makes me so anxious. I have been in my own head and crying since our conversation. My husband is getting frustrated with me..... all I want to do is cry and go back to bed.

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I was like that for awhile. It was a long time ago. Now I just cry sometimes. I hope you feel better soon. For me, changing meds helped and so did reading tarot and oracle cards actually. Good luck! Try to find things you can enjoy and do lots of that. I understand if you are unable or don't know how yet.

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Thank you. It is hard to get motivated in this quarantine.

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oh yeah

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plus it is hard to be couped up. I understand. Isn't it great to talk online. It's not as good as in person though. I have been so bored and lonely I feel like I am going to freak out. Also just found out this morning my thyroid levels are off. So that could be contributing to my depression. One doctor said not to worry and they were within normal range but my psych doctor says it's 3 times higher than it should be and I might need medication for that! What if they could fix me with thyroid meds??? Wow that would be neat. Have you had a physical lately and had your thyroid checked? Your TSH should be as close to 1 as possible. Although the accepted range varies a lot.

[Irishinthebay in reply to Hidden]

Hi, I’m on Lithium and it threw my Thyroid off and now I’m taking medication for it. It’s hard to get meds for it unless it’s way off. Maybe your psychiatrist could prescribe something for you? Mine did. It hasn’t helped my depression but maybe if yours is off naturally, the meds could help. It’s worth checking out. Sorry you’re struggling, I am too.

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Yes, the isolation makes it so much worse. I am on thyroid meds as well. It may very well be helpful for you.

[Depresseddoglover]

hi, i was also handling things well and found group therapy to be helpful, but am slowly regressing back into bad habits. i believe there are some online group meetings that we can look into.

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Yes, that's how I ended up here...looking for online resources. Hang in there.

[Irishinthebay]

Hi, I’m new here too. I’m so sorry to hear you’re struggling. Your story is similar to mine. I was also hospitalized and then went to a program - all in February too.

I am struggling also. I took the advice from some wonderful people here and I was feeling better but now feel myself sinking down again. I don’t want to get off the sofa...I don’t have the energy.

Please know you’re not alone and this is a great site to get support and advice. I’ve only been on a few days and the people are amazing. Be kind to yourself!

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Thank you. Sorry you had a difficult February as well. I am trying to do a little each day. But yesterday was rough. But sun is up this morning and birds are singing!

[Irishinthebay in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, it’s raining here. I couldn’t get out of bed this morning but I forced myself up and went out to get groceries and feel a little better but I’m exhausted after going out. I hope you got to enjoy the sunshine!