Stuck between living and not wanting to be around

[Ambielove24]

I'm trying to stay strong I have a daughter she is my world but at the same time I feel suffocated I cant breathe I have no energy I feel I burden ppl in my life I am to negative I cry because I'm hurting I feel tired I hate looking in the mirror its becoming unbearable but I don't want to leave for my daughter's sake she is the only reason I'm still trying I lose her I'm done I wouldn't hesitate I know I seem crazy or whatever but I'm so lost

[dogsaregreat]

Boy do I know how you feel. It's Derby week here in Kentucky, and the weather is beautiful. But I feel like I wanna die. As I was unable to have children, I live only because of my 2 birds and 2 dogs. They keep me alive. I'm sooo lonely as no one understands what I'm going through, or even tries to understand. I pray every day for peace. And I am praying for peace and happiness for you too.

[Blue_Eyeore]

I think that's good that you use your daughter to help you push through the tough times, just make sure that you're not ONLY living for her, try to do other stuff or find a hobby that you can do to keep your mind off of it. I do the same thing if my only thought to keep me going is my boyfriend and niece and nephew that's good enough for me because sometimes we're not strong enough to push ourselves... but they can't always be your only reason. You can do it!!! 🖤🖤🖤

[Feathe]

Hello! I understand you. I used to have depression and suicidal thoughts and i v left it behind when I went to a holistic doctor who changed my diet to begin with. My depression and suicidal thoughts were gone within days and I had energy and a nice body. I m not saying it s easy and that this is the only solution or that it works for everyone but I think it s a good place to start. The doctor told me to stop eating white sugar as it causes depression, so no sweets, also no crisps, no frying in vegetable oil as these are trans fats that damage our brain.instead go for Olive oil, and better no or very little frying with coconut oil or Olive oil. No wheat or corn and no gluten products. For several months I had no processed at all and later I would have buckwheat pasta or rice flour cookies with stevia or Vic sugar i would cook mydelf. But I feel a lot better generally and better energy with no processed at all. Finally no dairy as it contains caseine. So what would I eat? Green tea when wake up instead of coffee.fruit in the morning for detoxing.omelette with avocado, sundries tomatoes, olives and broccoli later for breakfast. Organic meat, better lamb with veg for lunch or veg risotto. And maybe sardines with veg for dinner. try it for a week to see how you feel.Also I started reading basic psychology books that helped me a lot to see wrong perceptions I had about people or life.a bit of exercise when you can. If you take no other medication there are amazing ayrveda herbs for depression. Try meditation when wake up and right before bed even for ten minutes. Don t give up. God is inside all of us.we need to find a way to connect with the divine inside of us..Take care. You are blessed with having a lovely daughter and you are blessed with living. Feel it before bed and when you wake up.meditate on that. Take care. Small steps

[Stilltrying_ in reply to Feathe]

I think diet changes can have great results too. We need to work on the body and the mind at the same time.

[Lulububs in reply to Feathe]

I so agree Feathe, i have sufferered anxiety and depression All my life and im now 45, about two years ago i started getting more stressed and anxious and started getting bad symtoms migraines, Ibs , stomach problems so decided this was it...

So i totally changed my diet,

No alcohol, no gluten or sugar.

Lots water.

Also i started to run and do yoga and within 2 years i lost 2 1/2 stone and felt amazing... it totally changed my life.

Now if i get anxious i go running!

It clears my mind and wears me out mentally and physically so im to tired to stress plus i have more energy and coz i look better i feel happy with myself more.

[Jeff1943]

Ambielove24, things are not as bad as they seem. It's just that you're experiencing nervous exhaustion and you feel you've lost control. What caused your nervous distress only you know: overwork, worry, loss, toxic relationships are just a few of the many.

But know this, you can recover from the nervous exhaustion and you can regain control of your life once more. For your sake and your daughter's.

You say you hate looking in the mirror but I see a brave and loving person giving 110% for their beloved daughter. You stand among the bravest people in the world who face their demons daily and refuse to surrender. You are one of us, people with anxiety disorder are the bravest of the brave.

No need to fear your anxiety the way you do. Anxiety is a trickster, like all bullies it is weaker than you think. Anxiety cannot kill you or disable you or make you lose your mind. Anxiety tries to convince you that it can, but it's a toothless paper tiger whose roar is worse than it's bite. It does not deserve your fear, if you can stop responding to the flash of first fear with second fear you can regain your quiet mind.

When we experience anxiety disorder our super sensitive nerves make every problem and small concern appear at least ten times more formidable than it is. Your problems are well within your capability to solve, anxiety has robbed you of your self confidence but it will return in the fullness of time.

Of course you feel breathless and devoid of energy. This is not a physical illness it is the reaction of your nerves to too much fear hormone. Fear is the enemy, if we can lose our fear our nervous system begins to recover.

And why shouldn't you lose your fear of anxiety: it's power is far more limited than it would have you believe. It plays games with your mind but that is all it can do. If we stop falling for its tricks, if we are prepared to accept its symptoms for the time being, then we are well on the way to recovery.

You aren't going to feel like this for ever, these bad thoughts and feelings will disperse and you will recover. I wish you God's speed towards that recovery.

[Feathe]

Yes, I think so too. And we need to see ourselves holistically and try many things for both our mind and body. Doctors who just give us a pill and they send us home is not good enough in my opinion

[Ambielove24]

Thanks everyone I really appreciate u taking the time to message me I am seeing a therapist I hope meds help me and I am starting to hike amd eat healthy hopefully everything will work out just been feeling unworthy and useless it gets to intense and my sleeping is way off as well too. But I will get through this if not for me for my daughter

[LadyO4]

I see you have received many good comments, especially the ones related to diet and how it affects the functions of the brain. Too may people have not been taught to understand the connection between the two. For the body to manufacture serotonin, the process starts in the liver and goes through multiple steps before it reaches the brain and crosses over into the brain. 70% of serotonin is made in the gut, so it's easy to see why diet and lifestyle play such a significant role in how we feel.

But underneath all that there are are emotions you battle with that are trying to define your worth. Our thought life is vulnerable to influences around us and even within us, so extra special attention must be given to uncover where those thoughts come from. Have you had a chance to spend time with a Christian counselor who can walk you through every area of your life to help you see where those thoughts are coming from?

We are all fearfully and wonderfully made, and once a person connects to the right people for help, they can begin to understand why these feelings want to take over our lives. But please remember, a person doesn't have to stay trapped if they have the right weapons to fight with. Let others help you, especially a "functional" doctor, Try doing a google search in your area for one - it will be well worth your efforts.

I have other resources I'd like to pass along to you if you want them. Let me know - we can continue this conversation if you'd like.