Klonopin

[cortisolqueen]

I just woke up and once again felt fine for a few seconds and then my mind took over and convinced me I am going crazy. I so hate taking meds for this and have tried so hard to get control of it myself. I especially hate the Klonopin. I am down to .25mg and trying my best to get completely off them. I am so afraid I going to become some kind of addict. I know that sounds crazy but I was 57 years old when I had my first panic attack and I have suffered every since that night. A have been on remeron, Lexapro and klonopin for almost 3 years. I was doing so much better and really thought I was coming out of this but then I just started having bad times again. I take care of my 84 year old dad, he is getting dementia really bad and up until March 18 was also caring for my 84 year old uncle. He had no children and I was his caregiver until he passed away from cancer. Everyone says I have too much on me but what do you do? I had to help them all I can, I love them and they have always been there for me. I just cannot believe the person I have become. I was once so strong and faced life head on. Now I feel like a failure. I have always been a very strong woman. I still work 6 days a week and that really is the only thing that keeps me a little sane. I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening. I love you all, it really helps to know I am not along on this journey.

[ChicagoGirl1961]

You are no failure! You should be commended for taking care of your father and working six days a week. If you need to take the klonipin and are using it as prescribed you are not an addict. There is nothing wrong with being dependent on your medications. Being dependent upon your meds does not make you an addict. Is a diabetic that is dependent on insulin an addict? I think not, and neither are you. Give yourself a break, feel good about all the things you are accomplishing in life and the help you are giving your father. You're taking meds for an illness, and you should feel no shame for doing so. And you should be proud of all that you are getting done and the good you are doing in your fathers life under what are a very challenging and difficult set of circumstances. I hope you have a great day and find some time to relax, you deserve it. Be well.

[cortisolqueen in reply to ChicagoGirl1961]

Hey thanks so much! Your words are so encouraging to me. It means a lot!