Lost again

[Meeko2018]

I’m new to this site. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression for years, my anxiety is constantly there, but I go through peaks and valleys with my depression, when it comes on it hits me hard. I’m going through a hard time right now mentally, I feel myself pushing everyone away, secluding myself, i want to just be alone but when I’m alone I feel uneasy, panicked, and scared. I’ve tried different medications, therapists, but the feeling looms over me that no matter what I will always feel this way. Cannot control negative thoughts and feelings.

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I understand. Do you have a hobby or something that you really enjoy focusing on that brings you a sense of peace? Something you can fall into your happy place and just create or feel great about everyday? Something that let's you measure against how you feel when you are at your lows? From my own behavior, I notice that when I'm creating or in my own little world doing something that I truly enjoy, I find it curbs my emotions and it allows me to simply feel worthy of self appreciation. Still have the lows, but I know its just an emotion, and emotions can be shaped. Also, I had blood work done a while back and they discovered that my Vitamen D count was super low even though I enjoy the sun everyday. Dr prescribed me High grade Vitamen D and I noticed a big difference after 4 weeks. I learned that the power of Vitamen deficiency is massive, and I would have never thought about that as a real solution. Now if I can get them to make it in Flinstone shapes that would be perfect.

[JumpingFrog]

You have my kindest regards. Be strong you can beat it.

[Hidden in reply to JumpingFrog]

Thank you JumpingFrog

[Meeko2018 in reply to JumpingFrog]

I guess I don’t really have any hobby’s, maybe your right though, something I can do to take my mind off things. Thank you so much, I appreciate you