Feeling hopeless

[Brokenangel1]

I don’t get why what I go threw is so hard for some people to get. I’m more sensitive, my mind races, and in need straight answers. But instead of helping me they all want to sit there and say I’m crazy, psycho, or I need help. I just really want to end it all.

[Sober2007]

I do hear and understand your frustration. It is hard for others who aren't going through what we are going through to comprehend it. Unless they have been trained to do so, like a good doctor, counselor or therapist. That's why the community we have here is so important, because it gives us a chance to interact with people who relate. One thing that concerns me is if the people you are referring to are really calling you names. If that is the case and it were me, I'd maybe try to find some other people to be around.

[Brokenangel1]

It would be easier to find other people if it wasn’t my family.

[Brokenangel1]

I just don’t get why they can’t understand that some days are harder then others.

[Sober2007]

Ah, family. Yes that is challenging for sure. Part of my family gets it to some degree, while others don't really get it at all. I think it is just hard for them. I'm sorry you're having a hard day though, and I hope you feel better soon.

[Sunnidayz1]

I agree with Sober2007. I also want to add that just because they dont understand doesnt mean they dont care. They might just not understand. And just bc you are anxious or depressed doesnt mean you're crazy. They are ignorant. It's unfortunate bc mental health is not something that is taught to us in school. And it should be. It's no different than physical health. It might be helpful to research what you think you're experiencing and talk to them about it. If they are not sympathetic to what you have to say, then turning to a counselor or therapist would be very beneficial.

[Brokenangel1]

I just feel like giving up trying to explain

[Sunnidayz1 in reply to Brokenangel1]

Ok so dont. You dont have to right now but if you are experiencing what you are experiencing you need to talk to someone..yes, we all know what u are going through..yes, we are here for you but at the end of the day, it is your life and to feel better talk to a counselor. You will be happy you did.

[Brokenangel1]

Counselors only threaten to take my kids. I can never really open up have I feel. I never really fully open up to anyone. I have been fighting with this person since 10am... I have cried so much my nose is pouring out blood. When will it ever just be easy agaim

[jkl5500]

I agree with Sunnidayz1. Please get treatment for your depression ASAP, if you're not doing so already. Don't try to "figure this out" by yourself. This is an illness, and it needs medical treatment. There is NO shame in getting treatment, despite the ignorant things your family has said. Please make an appointment with your GP today. He or she can recommend a therapist for you.

[Brokenangel1 in reply to jkl5500]

I have tried all that. The meds don’t help me .. I have tried Wellbutrin, concerta, Zoloft, busbar. Nothing helps.

[jkl5500]

I would recommend talk therapy with a psychologist, to get to the bottom of the trauma you have suffered, and plan a course of action for recovery. You are still very young, and you have plenty of time to get back on the right track.

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Don't give up - try someone else for help. Always keep trying. Not all doors/people/approaches work but one will. We are hurting but the path forward isn't always the same for each of us.

Usually a therapist would never remove kids - you mentioned that - therapists usually ONLY have a duty to act/report to others, if you are at risk of HARMING YOURSELF or OTHERS, other than that a professional therapist is bound by confidentiality. Sometimes talk therapy type of counseling things help, sometimes CBT - cognitive behaviour therapy and meds. Meds rarely fix it - they just lift you up enough to start to do the work we need to do on ourselves to heal/cope/manage. For me I was helped by bits and pieces of therapy - talk / CBT, BUT I needed more - I found a lot of help from Integrative Body Therapy -- it's come come out of research related to PTSD (where often talk therapy doesn't work).

I'm so sorry that your family is name calling - that's not right at all. Suggesting you get help, is helpful act of kindness.

Family members may not understand at all. Some believe the stigmas about "mental illness". But until very recently, no one talked about mental illness or challenges with depression/anxiety, etc. so most of what they know is from movies and coffee conversations unless they took some training.

Some family members may be great at first but they also may be frustrated and and worried (sometimes worried sick) if they see your sadness/anxiety has been ongoing for months/years. And they can feel hopeless about how to help and also start feeling that listening is pointless cause it doesn't help you get well. So they can get short tempered and angry.

Try to see what type of "help" they might be able to offer - it might not be listening, but maybe they would do something concrete-- if one likes to cook, ask if they'd make a batch of "x" - extra pizzas to bring over. People can't always like the way we'd like most, but many can / will help if we ask for things they can do.

Last night my daughter-in-law, knew this week was tough, so she popped by with an ice cream treat. She'd never want to listen me or help me in my moments of panic. But it made my day to get that little act of kind thoughtfulness.

I don't know if any of this helps, but I hope you are treated kindly by others and keep trying to become well.

[JEG325]

You have quality friends to talk to, my friend! I will listen to anything you want to say. You can contact me on my pm if you want. Your other friends will listen too. We've all had similar problems and we're here for you when you need us. Okay?