Unwanted

[Edaenah22]

I have depression I feel like I will never measure up. I do not feel wanted or cared about. I guess what makes things worse is that I stopped caring about myself.

[-Sasha-]

Hi,

Like you, I have depression. Like you, I stress about not measuring up or not even coming close to fulfilling my potential. Like you, I feel like no one cares or wants to bother with me. I feel like those around me can see I'm struggling, some even know, but yet no one cares enough to ask me about it. Like you, I haven't stopped caring. If we stopped caring then we wouldn't be here reaching out for support. You're not alone! If you need to talk feel free to vent away or message me.

~S~

[1OshunDreamer]

One day when I felt the way you're feeling, I went on Pinterest and looked up quotes and saying about being strong. The ones I like, I printed and pinned them to a corkboard that now hangs on my bedroom closet. Everyday, I wake up to it, open it and fall asleep to it. It's a reminder to be strong.

Just a thought.

[marheart in reply to 1OshunDreamer]

Great idea. My desk is up against the bedroom left side of the entry door. I have post it type notes that I accumulate and stick on the door.

Read them easily. Can add and subtract at will. No space for a board.

Creative thinking sure does help.

Examples: Follow your Truth

Tapping and saying " Anxiety disorder is gone"

Trust the process.

I'm grateful for ......

Who else has ideas for us to focus on the positive?

[1OshunDreamer in reply to marheart]

I love the Serenity Prayer when I feel out of control. But When I need to be strong I LOVE, "Do no harm but take no shit"!

[Michael8072 in reply to 1OshunDreamer]

I have a serenity prayer pendant that I wear and hold a lot.

[Nom-D-Ploom]

I have fond that the more I fight to be treated fairly, the worse it gets. It just makes you so upset that you don't get over it. You are always on guard for signs or mistreatment. Sometimes you must stand up, but most of the time I feel better if I don't respond. Now, there are times.....I was the middle child. I watched each or my siblings get gifts and cake on their birthdays, but I always got a promise, This is what I will get when they have more money. Bet you can guess if I ever got those promised things. A few years ago I called my father the day after his birthday. I talked about nothing until he accused, "I guess you forgot my birthday." I said, "I didn't. I thought about it all day. I thought about how I never got so much as a card." I get a card every year now. When it is really bad I tell myself that I can react...……………...tomorrow.

[marheart in reply to Nom-D-Ploom]

Take one baby step at a time. Do what you can for yourself.

Dad did it his way. Now it's your turn to live life your way.

[Edaenah22]

Thank you for your positive feedback and suggestions. I’m just going threw so much at the moment I feel and felt like I’m drowning. I guess what made me feel that way is knowing that my marriage might be over my husband isn’t interested in being with me. The thing is that I know he is seeing someone else. I told him I knew and that I wasn’t going to fight with him about it because I don’t have time for drama because I have to focous on nursing school. Well I guess I wasn’t even able to do that because I failed one of my exams. We went to subway yesterday and he wouldn’t stop looking at the girl over the counter making eyes at her I felt so hurt. And yes I know I should leave but I just want to finish my program first before I leave. He supports me financially so I can go to school full time. Since my schedule is school Monday through Friday. So I feel hurt and disappointed in myself because of that. It’s embarrassing to say my husband doesn’t want me anymore but the more I say it the harder I want to work to get my nursing license to prove to him I don’t need him and I can do better without him.

[Michael8072 in reply to Edaenah22]

I'm sorry you are going through this. But I love your ending. Continue with that push and drive know you can become a nurse and be able to take care of yourself and know that you are worth it.

[Nom-D-Ploom in reply to Edaenah22]

Hang in there. The nursing degree is a constant once you get it. It travels with you, and promises a good income for life. You also lead a life that focuses on giving. That is a big bonus. You cannot feel worthless when you are easing the pain of a stranger. I know some good tips to get you through some of the classes.

[Beastmode]

Hmmmmm,that's hard hope you overcome it.