Tired saddest thing is it hard to sleep

[Vannessasedillo]

So here my story it first started 5 months ago,I was standing happy dancing in my room then out of nowhere I feel and here fluid or something build up in my ear and I was scared at first but then I told myself it's okay the feeling will go away so I herd tiny ringing noises for like 2months i ignore it and then later on I feel like my ears were blocked and air is stuck in my ear and head I was dizzy so I put these drop in my ear supposed to dry out fluid but it didn't work so I tryed hot towel put it against my ears nothing so I went to the hospital they said I had a little bit of fluid behind my eardrum so I was taking antibiotics but it just made me feel sicker so I stop but then I went to another hospital because I had a breathing problem I felt like I was dying so the ambulance got me they told me it was a cold I guess so I got better from the cold and my head kinda it don't feel tight nomore my ears are the reason why I feel dizzy because of the blockeg so they gave me steroids and antibiotics nothing worked ears still blocked,every morning I'm dizzy and head feels heavy any ears feel blocked like nothing can get through even when I do the nose blow thing oyea I went to just a ear doctor spend 150$ for a lazy ear doctor that just flash a light in my ear m said u have no fluid like really fuck that ugh everyday I'm depressed everyday I try hard not to cry everyday I feel like I'm being tortured not being able to breathe right or live my life I just feel like I'm slowly dying I do n I don't know what to do about it I try hard I really do but ugh my life is miserable now I'm just stuck in a weak body that never feel relief anymore.

[marheart]

Are you taking medications for the anxiety? Talk therapy? This is not a disorder that we can treat for ourselves.

[Vannessasedillo in reply to marheart]

I take Tylenol for my headaches now and take sufade but nothing helps I just want my ear problem to go away it sounds so simple to solve but it isn't why can't a doctor just take away my problem it fluid in MY ear like come on it seem like nobody cares not even my family nobody I'm alone and being tortured I don't want to live like this I can never be happy because of this .

[Calt28]

Sorry you have to deal with your situation but never quit hold in those tears and keep pushing forward try a different hospital or find a different doctor someone who actually cares about the people they treat instead of a paycheck and I shall pray for you to feel better......peace and happiness

[marheart in reply to Calt28]

I use Tapping and breathing all day long. Holding in the feelings only make them worse when they are all bottled up inside.

Insurers do cover behavior health issues.

Maybe you need a different specialist. ENT Dr? Psych? Talk therapy?

Get as much help as is available in the different specialties. Someone will see and hear you when you let it all out to them. Take a long list of questions with you with things to discuss during your appt.

I know it's easier said than done. I run away as much as possible and beat myself up for not loving myself enough to be the best I can be.