Lonely even with support

[Finx]

I’ve got support of friends and family but my existence is pure lonliness. I go thru the day like I’m the only person in the world who feels this way. I just want to scream and yell and tell everyone how I feel all the time. Wouldn’t that be great. That’s the world I need to live in. Instead I fake it thru every interaction. Fake smile fake laugh fake interest. Even with my loved ones I just feel so lonely in my head. I’m on tons of meds and none have helped. It seems like such a waste.

Anyway just want to connect with the one group of people I know get it. So thanks.

[Jamie2018]

Hi Finx

Yes unfortunately that is how this illness makes us feel like we are the only one feeling like this. I remember when I was in such a bad depression looking at other people and wishing I was like them not having a clue as to what I was going through.

Dont you wish just one of your loved ones feel the unbearable anguish for a moment just so they understood how you feel?

Your on meds so I assume you have a therapist? Are you completely honest with telling him how you feel? In my experience I found it very difficult to open up. I kept my feelings all bottled up inside and that's the worst thing for anyone.

As for meds not working for you what does your doctor have to say about that?

In sorry your going through this it is pure hell I've been there and never wish it on anybody. I'm glad you have support from your family ,at least you can take comfort in that, imagine how much worst it would be if they didn't support you?

I hope things get better for you soon.

Take care