not myself

[hlangdon]

I've been so out of sorts the last several days. I'll be homeless on March 4th and Office of Temporary Assistance has basically been messing with me. I just had a anxiety attack when i got to work today and was sent home on an excused absence. Thank god the company cares about their employees. Had thoughts of hurting myself again. Now all the sudden, I started rocking back and forth while sitting down any where. Is rocking back and forth part of anxiety? Or is this something to help reduces the anxiety. I'm so confused right now. Been sleeping over 12 hours every night with a sleeping pill at night

[kenster1]

hi your problem seems to be never ending its terrible that it has gone on so long.i wouldn't read to much into the rocking ive done it before when things get to much.

[hlangdon in reply to kenster1]

kenster, Its always a battle with office of temporary assistance. but most challenging part if finding a place to live. Now that I'm only here at the motel for 10 more days its gotten the best of me today

[kenster1 in reply to hlangdon]

hopefully after 10 days something will happen for the good so you can get back some normality to your life.

[hlangdon in reply to kenster1]

i hope so kenster1. just want my anxiety to settle down some what so i can function a little more as a normal person

[skidrew]

Hang in there. I’m going thru a perfect storm for months. I’m at my wits end but just keep hanging on for dear life. I know it will get better and could be much worse. God bless and pray like hell.

[hlangdon in reply to skidrew]

skidrew, thank you

[Agora1]

hlangdon, I am more than sorry to hear that your life is taking a turn

downhill once again. Rocking is part of a self soothing coping mechanism.

My foster child did it from the first day I got her. She had been left abandoned

in her crib. In a way, you have been left abandoned as well. Please keep us

updated as we want you to be safe. xx

[hlangdon in reply to Agora1]

I will Agora1. just trying to keep myself out of the hospital right now as much as i can. I don't want to use the hospital as a safety net when something goes wrong and to use it as a safe place in a bad situation

[Want2BHappy3]

The rocking back and forth could be a way of coping with anxiety? Why are you becoming homeless? You have a job? That is one of my biggest fears, my savings are running low. I also get Social Security which is only $1,000 a month. In California that’s not going to cut it. Hope things get better. 🙏

[hlangdon in reply to Want2BHappy3]

want2bhappy3, i was evicted from the house I was living in last year. When I went to Social Services( office of temporary assistance) they put me up in a motel and my time is running out at the motel. I have a part time job but not enough to pay for a $1200 apartment

[Want2BHappy3 in reply to hlangdon]

How much time? What state do you live in? Try contacting the employment office they offer help with getting a job, help with resumes and job interviews. You have office skills from your temporary job. There are rooms for rent apps you should look into?

[hlangdon in reply to Want2BHappy3]

I have been here since may 31, 2019 and I need to be out of the motel by March 4th. I'm working part time and making $15 an hour

[Tonyhope]

Don't harm yourself. I truly know how you feel, but it will only increase your problems. Trouble don't last for long. Don't stress about anything, I no its hard but try to stay focused and believe everything is gonna be alright

[hlangdon in reply to Tonyhope]

thank you Tonyhope. I have been fighting the urge to cut myself.

[Chancalot in reply to hlangdon]

Hurting yourself is not the answer it will just land you back in the hospital. When you leave the motel on March 4th do you have some place to go. The OTA can't just leave you on the street .

[hlangdon in reply to Chancalot]

trust me OTA will put me out on the street here in NJ if i don't have a place to go to.

[Chancalot in reply to hlangdon]

You have a few days, please go to the office and speak to someone. I've been there and did that a few times trying to negate my mental illness. They will help even if it means going to a shelter. It is easier to get section 8 from a shelter with a MH diagnosis, not that I like section 8 but you won't be on the Street.

[Tonyhope in reply to hlangdon]

What state is you calling from

[hlangdon in reply to Tonyhope]

I'm in NJ

[Tonyhope]

Aw ok