Stress being around people

[hisipiki]

My challenge today lied in whether i could manage going through a day hanging out / social with my relatives on my cousin's wedding. As expected, today was a 10/10 challenge in reality.

My family doesn't like me as much since I told them about my diagnosis on depression, anxiety, PTSD and what I've been going through or thinking about.

I felt kinda bad sometimes my emotions do get out of control. My husband also think it's my problem. I feel pretty aliented and lonely.

[RLK2017]

I know exactly how you feel! I feel like nobody understands at all. My husband try's to. I used to be a very fun outgoing person and now I cant even make friends. It's very lonleym

[hisipiki in reply to RLK2017]

Yes, I used to be a very very outgoing person too, but not anymore.... 😔

[RLK2017 in reply to hisipiki]

Yeah me either! I have to take medication just to go to work. Even family gatherings or being around friends I've known my whole life. I have such anxiety I cant get out of my car and if I do, it's like I go mute and just stay quiet.

[hisipiki in reply to RLK2017]

So you get upset when you get distant to most family members due to that?

[Agora1]

hisipiki, as you know from this community site, you certainly aren't alone in how you feel.

I don't think the family really doesn't like you but just doesn't understand. I use to feel that my mother was embarrassed that I was always missing from family events. It was a

hard pill to swallow for both of us. She being the one that had to explain over and over why I wasn't there and for myself having to deal with what people thought of me.

What made it more difficult for people to comprehend anxiety disorder was that when I

felt good, I was outgoing and myself making it more impossible for people to understand

if I was just using anxiety as an excuse. The thing is in never wanting people to see us in

a state of physical symptoms. Oh I believe the worry and what ifs alone caused me to stay

home, which just built up a repetitive fear of interacting with friends or family.

The key is finding a way to satisfy both family and yourself by having a plan.

That would be Part 2...or my responses go on and on xx