Just pouring

[paintingwords]

You know once in a while when it's been really long acting strong, accepting that things will be the way they are, and your perspective is all that matters, etc...you pour. Just that. Pouring without any specific reason but for so many at the same time.

Those times when you ask yourself why everything is so difficult. And they are for everyone but why you can't handle it while so many can.

Sometimes I wish I could trust me, parts of me that I can't trust anymore. My brain that seems to lack some important chemicals, my heart that pours just too easily, too much. My heart aches, so does my head. But neither ever stop. Sometimes I really wish for a complete break, day without thoughts, night without nightmares. Just peace....I long for peace

[fauxartist]

your not alone...many of us are empathic, we feel more than the average joe. we have thin skin when it comes to emotions, we wear our heart on our sleeve etc......that's not a bad thing in my book....I'd rather have the ability to give a crap about the world and myself than be oblivious to suffering and apathetic to others around me. So trust your emotions as they are what creativity and imagination stem from. Every great artist, musician, and great thinker all saw and felt more than the average person....and the world is a better place for it.

[paintingwords in reply to fauxartist]

I agree. It's not always a bad thing. In fact most of the times I believe it's my strength, it gives me some purpose and meaning in this otherwise meaningless life.

It's just sometimes you want to shut down, and that just becomes impossible

Your reply makes me feel so much better. I got some validation also

Thanks fauxartist! I wish you all the good. :)))

[fauxartist in reply to paintingwords]

the way I switch off for a while is with doing something positive and creative. I like photography, but it's still too cold to get out right now, I also love gardening to clear my head but again it's still too cold....so I had started painting.....I'd love to bake but my butt would not appreciate it....so painting is low calorie and works for me.

[SmilesLots]

I often long for peace also. I wish you peace and comfort. How can we help you?