I've been trying so hard for so long to find relief and peace within myself. I just can't get out of my own way. I have depression, anxiety, and OCD. It's made life so painful. Every day it's like I'm battling myself. I've never developed real interests for personality traits because I feel so anxious that don't do things I might like because I'll be so stuck in my head that I can't enjoy it. Every time I try to take a step towards who I think I might want to be I feel unsure and it's left me paralyzed.
I've found some relief in knowing that I'm not alone. So if you can relate, please feel free to reach out.
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Sorry to hear you are going through this pain. I can't read relate, just wanted you to know that your not on your own.
It’s just so hard and I want to find myself but I don’t know how. I’m trying to heal, but it’s a huge roadblock that I’m not in touch with myself. Looking into inner child work seems hopeful to reconnect with myself. Is there anything that’s helped you at all?
The situations are probably different. But what was holding me down was me always wanting to put everyone else above myself. I've decided to be selfish. I need to make myself happy now. I've done everything for the people around me. It's time for me to reconnect with myself and not concern myself with anything else.
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I hear you and I can relate. I experience OCD, anxiety and PTSD. I am actually finding relief through a lot of challenging cognitive therapy and reading helpful books and doing meditation.
It’s really hard work, and sometimes I hate it, but it’s helping me grow to a place where, I can be free of crippling OCD and anxiety fears…
For perspective I am 47 and have been living g with these fears since the age of 12.
All of those things have been so helpful for me too lately. I’ve been in interpersonal therapy for a little over a year. Recently started reading some books on self love and acceptance. What books have been helpful for you? I’ve had a hard time finding resources.
It just makes it hard because I do feel relief when I read things like self love books or throw myself into things that give me peace. but finding those things and actually allowing myself to do them is sometimes unbearable, and it’s so so frustrating. If you can access therapy, I highly recommend it. It is hard work but I feel like I’m growing towards feeling more relief and finding out to help myself. I’ve tried different medications and am also on the cusp of starting ketamine therapy. it’s hard to keep up hope, but thanks for responding. It is so nice to not feel alone.
Your not alone. Read my profile, if I can hold it together so can you. 45 minutes of daily cardio exercise to produce endorphins that battle your anxiety and depression
I've had Depression all my life. I hate how people minimize it. I see no reason why you could not scream into the void. It helps sometimes. The void I recognized in my life was no sense of self and no belonging. The void is scary because every person wants security and safety. However, I tried to accept that the void also means one is on the brink of a breakthrough. It also means, to me, being on the brink of infinity, because we are actually more feeling and thoughtful than the herd. If I can embrace that, I feel better. I think everyone can do the same.
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Just want to give up 
I just can't take it anymore. I want to live but it's too damn painful.
I just need some support 
I have super happiness powers that scream, “don’t give up!”
