I think I had a nervous breakdown this week

[Kat63]

I need to feel OK talking about it. I felt terrible every single morning, and I finally broke down and took some Ativan today. My doctor wants me to use it sparingly because it can be addictive. But after the way I felt all week, I’d rather have an addiction than feel this way.

I can’t concentrate on anything. I used to be an avid reader, but I hardly read at all this week because I just couldn’t keep my attention on it.

I have mental health problems, and I need help. Most of all, I need to feel OK admitting this to myself. I have an illness. It feels better to see this clearly, and say the words to myself (if no one else.)

[jkl5500]

Please feel free to say whatever you like. I use Ativan on a daily basis at this time, though I am slowly tapering down on it. It works very well for me.

[hummingbirdheart]

I was able to have ativan for lasik surgery, and this sounds really bad but I've been craving it ever since. I'm so sad that ativan is highly addictive, because when I took it I literally felt like I was transported back to being a happy kid. I felt like I could do anything, like a normal functioning adult, completely free of any worries or anxiety or depression. I felt cured. I didn't realize I felt so terrible all the time until I got to experience...well, joy, I guess.

I also have a really hard time focusing or reading and get brain fog a lot. I used to get so much joy from reading.

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing.

Also, I feel terrible pretty much every morning too. It's nice to know I'm not alone in that.