Can’t get out of depression

[Blue03]

Hi, first time posting here. I’ve been on and off of a depression episode for a long time it feels like. Seven years ago I was diagnosed with epilepsy and had a real hard time with that especially when I lost a lot of weight, went through a lot of medication and didn’t like how I looked anymore. I started college a few months after and never gave myself time to get use to everything. I don’t think I even realized I had depression until 2 years ago, I always blamed me being tired all the time and unmotivated on my medication. Now I look back and feel like the years of college went by so fast and I didn’t take advantage of all the things college has to offer, I just wanted to sleep in all my free time. I’m not sure how time gets away so fast and I can’t remember hardly anything. Now lately, again I just want to sleep all the time, I have no energy to do anything. Sometimes I’m even totired to shower. Then I feel guilt because I’m still young and should be going out having the time of my life and meeting new people. Also I’ll get on kicks of wanting to try something new to keep me busy or find something to bring joy to me but I always end up dropping it and rather sleep/watch tv. I feel like I’m worthless and lazy. Everything just seems like it takes so much energy. I’ve never really been passionate about anything either to stick with it and I feel like somethings wrong with me. Does anyone else struggle with this? How do you get through it. I’m not on medication and don’t see a therapist.

[brokenlight]

Talking about your experience & reaching out are great steps.

Counseling/therapy can provide extra support & accountability.

Medication is helpful for some & not for others.

I hope you can find what works for you & I’m sorry for your pain & suffering.

[B4andafter]

Lack of energy and "anhedonia" (lack of pleasure or the capacity to experience it) are classic signs of depression. I know this because I currently feel like sleeping and/or watch tv. I really have to "push" myself (yes, even to shower) but if I give in to the feeling, then I start calling myself lazy, worthless etc which only serves to make the depression worse; it's a vicious cycle. If you've had a recent physical to rule that out as a basis for your lack of energy, then trust me, sleeping a lot is an avoidance technique because being awake and feeling low is painful. It sounds to me that you are slightly depressed and that could be due to regrets, unmet dreams or goals as well as thinking negatively about yourself. If you have a trusted friend you can talk that might help. I also think you should consider talking to your GP.