hating anxiety

[purl1]

Hi this is my story. I was laid off november of last year and my life has gone to hell. I now deal with severe anxiety and depression. I've allways been depressed but the anxiety is new to me. It is completly debillitating. I can't do anything without being drugged up on ativan. I can't control my thoughts at all. Mornings are the worst part of my day. I am joining a day program at a local hospital but don't know how I'm going to get up in the morning to go to it. not that I'm not up at 5 every day. my mind is such a mess at the beginning of the day. I also found that I'm starting to avoid certain things because I feel they trigger my anxiety. I got really bad last weekend and was sobbing uncontrolably. I got scared because I didn't like feeling the way I did and was afraid I might do something bad to myself. luckily my husband was home and came and helped me somehow get out of it. this is so hard to deal with. I am hoping maybe other people on here might have experienced some things like this and have found the light at the end of the tunnel.

[justanote]

I understand your struggle with anxiety. I started having problems with anxiety about 15 years ago. I spent about 6 months hibernating in my house and would go out only if my husband or a friend was with me. But there is HOPE! This struggle will not last forever! You can find healing! The first step is just recognizing that you can't control your anxiety on your own. It would be helpful for you to have someone you can talk to on a regular basis - a counselor, pastor, or friend. Working through your negative thoughts and emotions is better done when you have a sounding board. Secondly, give yourself time! It's very likely that your anxiety was building up over time, so it will take time to feel better. Though I rarely have panic attacks anymore, I tend to stuff my emotions down which results in some anxious days. Here are some things that help me: deep breathing, listening to calming music, journaling, praying, and walking. Usually the source of my anxiety is my thought process. I have learned to recognize when my thoughts are out of control and I need to work through them. I recently read an article that includes some helpful tips on how to deal with anxiety, especially when you feel anxious when you wake up in the morning: bit.ly/2ic5SWi. Finally, remember that God knows how you are feeling and He can help you calm down. Just ask Him for help. I will be praying that you find peace and calm today!

[purl1 in reply to justanote]

thank you for the article I did find it interesting. My counselor gave me some grounding excersizes, but didn't really know what the purpose was. I do find myself constatly worrying about the future. now I will start using them more often so maybe I can break the habit. thanks so much

[justanote in reply to purl1]

When I find myself worrying about the future, I try to remind myself to "be where your feet are"! You can't go back and you can't see what's ahead. In other words, just do today! I'm so glad you are seeing a counselor. I pray that each day will be a reason to celebrate life!