I don’t understand my emotions.

Sometimes, I feel like my depression isn’t real. Like I’m just some spoiled whiny white girl who doesn’t have her way in life. I was raised in a nice house, with a supportive family, so I have no idea why I feel so alone, sad, hopeless, and empty all the time. I feel like I’m overreacting to my emotions, because everything in my life should be perfect. But it’s not. There are so many people who deserve help more than me, yet they can’t afford it. I feel so selfish for wanting help.

[Endlessdepression]

You are totally validated. I have been controlled by similar things. A common thing that I have noticed about people with similar feelings, we seem to be all care gives. I have noticed in myself that many times.I said the same thing" some people have it worse ." Well, that has some truth to it. I find that I have it pretty bad myself after two suicide attempts,and I realize that a lot of people have it way better than me. I don't think we should belittle our situations. Sometimes, ours can be horrible as well as great. It's a battle and you have every right to be validate and except your feelings as bad. Don't belittle them! Unfortunately, a lot of people have done that adequately for me and I hope they don't do that to you. You're not alone eventhough it may feel like it. I hope you take this in a positive way

[hypercat54]

Why should everything in your life be perfect? No ones lives are after all so you aren't the exception. Depression can strike at random and doesn't distinguish between the haves and the have nots. If you have it then you do and you deserve to be able to seek help and find ways to deal with it. x

[Essentiallyfree]

Our emotions can certainly get the best of us and cause us to continue believing lies that we should live up to societies expectation that we need to be better, do better, be smarter/prettier/skinnier..etc.. I have totally fallen into this trap as well. And sister, you are wise for wanting to seek help! Your situation is real and to compare to someone who is "worse off" isn't fair to you. We all struggle no matter what we see on social media and the lack of honesty about life. Have you spoken to your family or friends about how you're feeling? Or pursued counseling? I have a great resource on depression that I'd love to share with you if you'd like! Hope you're feeling better today.