How do I cope?

[fantasticamy]

I thought I would be able to get over things, but I seem to be trapped in negativity. I have gone through some traumatizing things in the past months and I have tried so hard to think optimistically -- that things will get better and this is only a temporary phase of my life that happens to suck. But I can't, I don't have anyone by my side that can help me and due to the way I have reacted to what happened to me: other people have left my side as my reputation has been damaged, and I did the damage. It's hard for me to contain my emotions, and so I have shown them to people who used my vulnerability to their advantage. I don't know how to repair my relationship with people who I have hurt when I let my emotions run free, and I am scared that I will never be able to have close friends who I can really depend on.

[froggymom88]

I'm sorry you are hurting right now over these broken relationships.A apparently you didn't mean to hurt these people. I think the best course of action might be to start with the person you are closest to. Good friends may get angry with each other, but my experience has been that they are also willing to mend fences and forgive. Try to be open with this one person and seek there forgiveness. Don't push it. Just open the door and allow them time to reach back to you. I will be praying for you that you can begin the healing process.