Depression caused by intrusive thoughts.

[Ddpg94]

Hello I have recently found this new community of anxiety and depression and I have been wanting to post on here but I am not sure if people here have intrusive thoughts like me or just get so obsessed with a certain thing sometimes that is disturbing and that causes bad depression and crying almost every single day. I wish I could meet everyone on here and we could all just sit around and talk! Sometimes that I am out and about with my boyfriend I see everyone else either in stores or restaurants so happy living there lives and I just wish I was like that and I didn't have this mental illness but well you never know if that person who is smiling in the outside is completely devastated in the inside. I don't know if I am the only one but sometimes I feel like just crying for some time and when I am done I feel a little better. I believe that God has a plan for me like he does for all of us here we just need to keep going and keep our faith.

I remember the first time I experienced these thoughts they were so debilitating that I had to quit my job and I felt like the whole world was coming to an end. I miss my old self I was so responsible and independent! I loved going to work and I would laugh everyday make others around me laugh I was so happy. All of that changed I no longer work I have to sleep with someone because I am scared of sleeping alone. I cry every other day waiting for this to magically go away. I remember my dad used to tell me when I lived with him for a while and I was first going through this he would see me cry and tell me just relax you have a boyfriend who supports you you are a beautiful girl with brand name things a great car what else do you want from life stop crying. These words would make everything worse of course but he didn't understand what I was going through exactly.

Anyone taking Prestiq (desvenlaxifine)?

I want to get switched to Prozac should I ? Anyone take Prozac? Suggestions

I have so much respect for people who battle with mental illness everyday it is really hard and I believe we are very strong people. I love everyone one here for being so brave and getting through each day. I am so glad I found this website.

God Bless.

Dany

[jkl5500]

Are you familiar with the book "Brain Lock"?

[jkl5500]

Hi again,

I read most of your previous posts, and I truly believe you will greatly benefit from the book "Brain Lock" by Dr. Jeffrey Schwartz. It's very easy to read, and filled with examples of real-life obsessive thoughts and compulsions (with the names changed, of course). Every one of the terrible thoughts you mentioned are in that book - and many, many more. You will see how common these thoughts are. No, you not a monster. You are a good person with an anxiety disorder. I strongly recommend you get "Brain Lock". It will give you peace of mind.

[Ddpg94 in reply to jkl5500]

Hi thanks I will look for this book I LOVE READING! Recently what has been giving me peace of mind is praying that God gives me the strength to fight this daily battle! I am praying for you as well. This will get better

[Icanbeathis2016]

Hello to you and welcome to the forum. You have come to the right place. We can all in some way relate to the same things. I can definitely relate to everything you are saying especially about intrusive thoughts. Man, have I been stuck in tunnel vision with racing thoughts, couldn't sleep because of it, couldn't focus, and it controlled me. I still have my days when my anxiety is at its worst when it happens.

I tried medication for exactly 45 days and quit because I just felt it was not helpful, well maybe it could have been but my anxiety wouldn't allow me to give the medication a chance. But after almost four years now of going through this I have managed to not take any meds but except that once. It's a hard journey. But it's funny you mentioned what you do in your post, I have a broadcast on YouTube that basically discusses what anxiety does and how I am facing my fear of fate. I actually have an episode that talks exactly about intrusive thoughts. If you can, check it out. Maybe it can be of some help to know you are not alone.

I wish you the best.

youtu.be/p6PbhX3FrwQ(Not working as expected?)

[Ddpg94 in reply to Icanbeathis2016]

Hi thanks for the video I will take a look at it! I completely understand when you say this is a very hard journey but God can give you the strength to fight this daily battle just seek him!

[Icanbeathis2016 in reply to Ddpg94]

Yes indeed. God can!!!! I will trust and believe.

[Endlessdepression]

While I don't have a boyfriend or a girl friend, you cries made me cry. I feel you 1000%

[Ddpg94 in reply to Endlessdepression]

Hi! I don't know youre story but I am sure you have suffered as I have. I will pray for you that God gives you the strength to fight this battle you are not alone. I am here for you an so is he!

[gfranklin12]

You are not along my friend!!!