Different Person

[dogsmakemehappy]

I feel depression makes me a different person. I’m quick to anger, I get irritated over stupid stuff, I put people down, I’m mean, and I’m doing/saying stuff I never though I would. I’m normally commended on how sweet and polite I am but over the last few months I’ve become the biggest asshole. My boyfriend gets the brunt of it and I want to stop! I know some of these are symptoms of depression but any tips on how to get back to my old self? I’m afraid I’m going to ruin my relationship otherwise

[Eowyn7]

I think recognizing it is a big step towards fixing it. Hopefully the next time you can catch yourself in the act and redirect your feelings. You can apologize and explain that it is the depression clouding your emotions. I think your boyfriend would appreciate that and understand where you are coming from. People aren't perfect all the time so give yourself a break, too.

[dogsmakemehappy in reply to Eowyn7]

He definitely knows what’s going on and understands that it’s not me driving these things, but it still hurts him and sucks to put up with.

[Eowyn7 in reply to dogsmakemehappy]

I'm sorry I know it definitely sucks. Hopefully things will improve, may take time and patience. How is your boyfriend handling it? Is he upset?

[dogsmakemehappy in reply to Eowyn7]

I appreciate your support. It’s hard on him. He supports me and knows I’m taking steps to get better but I can tell he’s losing patience for my outbursts

[Eowyn7 in reply to dogsmakemehappy]

It sounds like you are both doing your best in a difficult situation. I'm sorry I don't have any tips, other than just keeping open lines of communication

[dogsmakemehappy in reply to Eowyn7]

Thank you for your responses and help!

[Orangeblossom85]

Im different too. LAZY! sleepy, always exhausted. avoiding. often lying.

i hate it!

[mlj6019]

I was like that at a time in my past when I was on Prozac. I hated it, I had terrible thoughts and it made me a horrible person. I had to change my meds to something else. At least you are aware of your thoughts, behaviors, the words you use, etc. I am glad you have a supportive boyfriend who understands. Yes, I totally agree about the depression making you a different person, but I have learned that depression, anxiety, PPD, bi-polar, whatever our systems are, do not define WHO we are as individuals. They are issues that we can work on and we all need help. What defines WHO we are as individuals, is our character, integrity, values, our uniqueness, etc. I hope that makes sense. Keep working on your issues and striving to improve them as I know you can. I wish you the best.

[dogsmakemehappy in reply to mlj6019]

Thank you so much for the insight and support. Just trying to take it day by day

[ozzy666]

Yes depression can certainly do that to you. So the best thing to do is treat your depression. Exercise. Exercise releases endorphins makes you feel good if you are physically capable of doing a lot of aerobic exercise and even some weight bearing exercise do it. If you are in a climate where you can get some sunlight right now get some sunlight sunlight helps produce serotonin makes you feel good. Do things that make you feel good and you like to help you out of your depression. Even if it's stuff you used to like and lost interest in do it anyway. That was a mistake I made when I started suffering from depression. I love music and used to listen to tons of music and that's what kept me going through many years of living with depression. I noticed I had stopped listening to music as much when I get home from work I just went plop down on the couch and watch TV as I was in pain from my feet hurting me and my back hurting me. And that was a further downward spiral for me. Try to talk things over with your boyfriend and come up with a plan to do some things together it will help alleviate your depression. My therapist used to tell me to volunteer. I understood that he just wanted me to get out and be with other people now. Back then I didn't want to do it because my back hurt. He used to tell me so what your back hurts just do it you're here with me you made it here go volunteer somewhere for an hour. Volunteering if it makes you feel good that you have helped somebody was his angle of thinking that creates endorphins helps depression. Being with people socializing we are all social creatures I was isolating too much. I'm a need-to-know person and have trouble following the advice of somebody without a thorough explanation. Instead of just trusting somebody who has a doctorate in Psychology.