I think I need help from a crisis center

[Starrlight]

There are misunderstandings when I try for help and I’ve had it. I know of a crisis center I have been to and I am thinking I may need to go there to rest, to get away, to practice coping skills... but I would be in constant wondering about my kids plus then my husband would probably not like it. I actually feel like dying. It’s just too hard; all of it.

[Hidden]

Yes, call them if you feel like that. Your family will be fine. Sometimes it's good to be away so they realize how much you do. Take a break and gather yourself. It will all be OK.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

I don’t think I can leave especially my youngest he misses me a lot when he’s in school I know I need to get help though. Omg 😯 I’m sooooo overwhelmed all of s sudden I’m afraid I can’t do what eould be best I’m confused as to what to do I think I’ll try to chill for a bit.

[NCAQuilter in reply to Starrlight]

My husband would tell your husband that going to a center is the best thing I've ever done. What I learned there changed our life. For the better! I went because of problems after the fires here in N CA this summer. They were only a mile from us. Many friends were affected.

I really feel for you and your little one. All I can say that it is better for him that you get help right now! Your husband seems to feel you should soldier through your 'down times'. He doesn't understand yet that fighting depression single handedly is a loosing battle. It can ambush you from a dozen directions at once. You need more soldiers in the field with you. Coping skills is a small army at your back. Couples counseling is another.

Please go to the crisis center now.

[Starrlight in reply to NCAQuilter]

I just feel unsure because I’ve been to the crisis center many times and I’m tired of needing it and I am super anxious right now all I want to do is try to settle down and rest and just be for now you know?

[NCAQuilter in reply to Starrlight]

I really get it. Doing anything seems just too hard! When you've rested enough, think about going to a behavorial center. When I thought about suicide, the ER doctor sent me to involuntary hold for 72 hours. In CA, if you are a threat to yourself, you must go for the 72 hours. I was held for another 3 days, then asked for 2 more days, until I was ready to go home. There were a number of doctors, nurses and psychiatrists on board 24/7 for whatever care you needed. There were various activities available - art, aromatherapy, decision making skills, communication skills, coping skills, as well as one-on-one therapy sessions as often as desired. If you can find a similar place, going there may be what you need. It was what I needed. I came out with changed meds and so jazzed - 'I can do this!' attitude. I still have it, 8 months later. And, knowing I can go back any time I need to, is a real comfort. I don't relate to the person I was up until I went to the center.

I hope you can find help like I did.

[Starrlight in reply to NCAQuilter]

Yes! That’s exactly what the place I’ve been to is like. Still thinking things over.

[NCAQuilter in reply to Starrlight]

If you go, don't leave until you are ready. Leaving too early doesn't allow you to get better.

[Starrlight in reply to NCAQuilter]

I’m too scared to go right now because I have a really negative feeling when I think of the place like I will feel really trapped. Thanks for being here NCAQuilter

[NCAQuilter in reply to Starrlight]

Can you check yourself in on a volunteer basis? That might take care of your fear of being trapped

[Starrlight in reply to NCAQuilter]

Hi thanks ...if I were to go in they would have to hold me there for at least 48 hours I think maybe more actually ...

[NCAQuilter in reply to Starrlight]

Yeah. Here in CA it would be 72 hours. But going yourself is much easier than having been admitted involuntarily. Having any level of claustrophobia could be a problem. But, think about getting positive results!

[Starrlight in reply to NCAQuilter]

Oh yeah maybe it’s 72 hrs here in VA too. Yeah I’ve always gone voluntarily. I have been feeling somewhat better. But if things get too much I will go in.

[NCAQuilter in reply to Starrlight]

So glad things are better. Hoping they keep improving.

Off subject - where in VA are you. My home town is Richmond, but spent several years in Roanoke. Brother is in Scotsburg. Vast majority of family originated in VA, even the Native American parts! I am a Virginian through and through. Although there some parts I can't agree with. Pm me, if you wish

[hypercat54 in reply to Starrlight]

If his mother is happier then so will he be. Don't underestimate the effects on children seeing a parent suffering, they pick up on everything. x

[Starrlight in reply to hypercat54]

Aahhhh true thank you soooo!

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

It is best he misses you for a short time and then hopefully get his mum bouncing back later on that in a very bad state all the time, life is hard at times and sometimes we have to just take care of our selves so we can take care of others the way we and they would want us to, take care keep in touch let us know how you are going

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Ok yeah I agree but I’m so weak to the point where I don’t have the energy to get going to the place right now... I’ll rest and see what tomorrow brings

Thank you Real

[Iloveart7]

Do what you need to do, for you! (((Hugs)))

[Starrlight in reply to Iloveart7]

❤️

[melbrown]

Hugs💛💛💛 Starrlight you need to focus on yourself right now. You need to be safe & healthy to be a good mom, wife... etc. Give the crisis center or your therapist/doctor a call. Together decide what would be best for you right now. Everything else will figure itself out. I know it's scary & hard, but you need to do this. Those who love you (including me) want you to be okay & well. I'm here for you sweetheart.

[Starrlight]

I’m scared.

[Sillysausage234]

Thinking about you star,sorry things are bad today maybe tomorrow is kinder to you,🌤🌟

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

True there’s tomorrow but I don’t have much hope it’s hard to believe that it will get better

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Starrlight]

I understand

[Starrlight in reply to Sillysausage234]

Thanks so much for your understanding wow I really needed that (((((( big hug))))))

[Hidden]

dear starlight,dont ever think of dieing love,i tried it 2 weeks ago.luckerly for me I did not die.i ended up in a@e all night had my family panikin,it also hurt .so try for me not to even

think about it,now promis.go into your rest home and refresh your self .peek

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

I’m so sorry you felt so bad that you felt the need to end it all. ((((((((( ❤️ peek ❤️))))))) You are meant to be here. Thank you so much for reaching out to me... I feel understanding from you thank you, love

[JEG325]

S, I'm here. You can talk to me. Please? I can help. You can pm me and vent all you need to. You are my BFF and I will always be here for you. Okay? I agree that you should do what you have to. If you cannot function properly at a given time then you cannot take proper care of your family anyway. Gather, rejuvinate and restore yourself. You will be able to take better care of you and your family then. But, please talk to me when you need to. That's all I ask. I will pray that you receive the strength necessary to make the right decisions in your life. I'm in your corner and I'm pulling for you! Sending you a billion, kazillion hugs, vibes of love, calming & tranquility!

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

I am so tired but I’m trying to fight ... it’s hard to see clearly right now. I’ll see how tomorrow goes and if it’s the same or worse I’ll be going into crisis care for a stretch.

[JEG325 in reply to Starrlight]

I will continue to send my love and support to you, while also praying for a quick, sarisfactory recovery. You will stay in my heart while you are going through this, my special, special friend!

[newbie1956]

Starr,

Please take baby steps and be assured the confusion and fear is temporary.

You have our prayers.

Agape.

[Starrlight in reply to newbie1956]

Thank you so. Very helpful baby steps

[nicetomeetyou]

Starrlight,

If you are afraid of hurting yourself please get help. Your family will be okay. I’m sure all they want is for you to feel better. You’ll be in my thoughts.

[Starrlight in reply to nicetomeetyou]

Thank you so much Nice to meet you nicetomeetyou 😊

[aaronm]

I'm gonna pm you

[kenster1]

you might not have much hope but at least you have some.hoping tomorrow you will have a little more.make that call or appointment to the crisis centre it will do you a world of good.always remember you have us as well.

[Starrlight in reply to kenster1]

Thanks so much

[Starrlight]

(((((((( ❤️))))))

[dore13]

I have not heard the term crisis center, is that a psychiatric hospital?

[Starrlight]

It’s a house where you go to stay to figure things out, there is support and groups that meet to learn tools for surviving mental illness and hard times. Sometimes people go to straighten out meds and to be watched so you stay safe, Other times to find a shelter if you have no place to live, stuff like that.

[Whiteflower5]

I'm so sorry to hear that you are struggling so much. I hope today is a better day. I'm thinking about you!

[Starrlight in reply to Whiteflower5]

White flower, thank you I think it’s a better day in ways.

[Hidden]

I think if you’re feeling that low then you honestly beed to put yourself first and go x in order to look after others you need to look after yourself remember? X

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

True. I’m feeling a bit of a scared feeling I think it’s becsuse I drank with friends this weekend alcohol is disgusting I’m really not happy with my choice but I’m glad I’m planning on cutting that out. I am cutting out ativan and that’s really hard right now too. I’m praying I’ll start feeling better soon . I am not happy and I think if I go to crisis care I’d get feeling more paranoid being around a lot of strangers I know I can’t be there right now.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Okay my friend x you know what’s best and I trust you know how to look after yourself x maybe you just need a little time out at home being comfy and relaxing with your loved ones 💕

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Yeah I think so. Thanks so much for being a good friend. How are you doing?

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Im a little low too 😔 but just want to support my friends x seems like a lot of us are struggling at the moment

And no need to thank me x

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

((((((Hug)))) and good vibes to you(((((( I hope later today we will be feeling better listen to what your body knows it needs, mine is begging for more rest and healing.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Yeah definitely from your post I felt that you need rest and love and just a break really with all your fav things x

(((Hugs))))

For me I think I need to put technology away and take time out x

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Oh yeah I think I could use s a break and love and also less technology like you. So thankful I don’t feel worse I really need to be kinder to myself. I hope you will have a peaceful break.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

And you too 💕 message me any time you need xx

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Great thanks ❤️