MENTAL BREAKDOWN... it is taking ALL of my strength, to prevent a complete OVERLOAD BREAKDOWN

[Cocoon3]

I cannot even explain EVERYTHING that’s going on in my life right now - I have not been sleeping, my mind races, planning a SECRET intervention for my daughter. Yes my husband work today but yes my husband knows every battle that I am facing, yet no words of support and compassion whatever is spoken from him I get more support verbally & attentively From anyone but him. ....My best friend F***** gave up fighting & died & left me here in this SHIT HOLE. The one friend from my past that reached out to me after my best friend‘s death is severely ill tonight , she has kidney stones which surgery is scheduled Friday but she’s running 102 fever right now and her husband needs to bring her to the ER it’s not happening -I’m in pain physically (barely can walk) , hair falling out & my skin is breaking out like a damn teenager——-STRESS !! and emotionally WOW, my daughter but ......I’m wanting to jump in my car and drive 45 minutes in 31 degree temperature, to go lay in the bed next to the only friend that reached out to me , I tt her & she sounds so weak. She promised she would keep me updated - so I pray that she does because my friend who left me !!! promised she would and she didn’t , she lied. I’m telling y’all if it was not for my 85 yr old mom which lives next door to me (that is completely disabled ), I probably would not be here at all. I can’t hurt her like that but when that day comes when she Hass to leave me I don’t know how I’m going to face any of this crap alone and by myself ... cocoon is closing up

[HearYou]

Well, you are in overload at the moment and am suggesting you call the suicide line tonight to help you get through the next few hours ...believe it's 211 in the US...or 911..and if you have a professional you are seeing regarding your current mental health issues, suggest that you put in a call there also. Or go to the closest ER for help.

You are angry sounding regarding the loss of your friend and the poor physical condition the other important people you have......that is your frustration that you feel you are standing on your own alone now, rather than leaning on and getting support from others.

But you are wrong, you are not alone. People are waiting on the other line of the telephone or in the ER to help you get through tonight. You are important.

So you can look elsewhere for support for whatever "crap" is hammering you at the moment......that is why I suggested the suicide line, your professional if you have one, or going to the closest ER. Just hearing a caring human voice who is well enough to listen can make a big difference.

Tonight will pass, and it seems there is always someone in the world awake reading the posts on this venue. Keep writing all night here if you want...may take a while to receive a response, depending on where you live, to reach a part of the world where members are up and starting their days.

One night, one day at a time.

Use deep breathing, non caffeine tea, a warm bath, and whatever else has helped you in the past.......if you have a basement and some old dishes or coffee cups, go through them against the wall. Pick up a big pillow and go to a part of the house where you won't distrub your family and scream as hard as you can into the pillow....use up part of the energy of your anxiety to help calm you down a notch.

A good number of us have felt overwhelmed at times by life, and we get through it and what to help you get through it.

I am having to excuse myself as my medication is due and it is very early morning here. But please keep communicating on this venue. Others in other parts of the world hopefully will see you reaching out. You are in my thoughts and wishes for some relief ...you do matter and I care. We all do.

[kenster1]

here for you anytime.