2nd Anniversary of my mom's death

[Lost_in_life]

It's the second anniversary of my mom's death. I was "keeping it together" okay until just a little bit ago. I've been through a lot of stuff even before she died. I can't help feeling like I'd be handling things better if she was still here... and I feeling guilty for feeling that way. If she were here she'd be pushing me to get a job and get over my anxieties. I could always talk with her about my feelings and problems. I've never been able to do that with my dad, and he's pretty much all I've got... my sister is in another city and my few friends are busy and/or in other cities too. I don't no where I'm going with this. Just getting it off my chest, I guess.

Oh, and I feel guilty that the last year was in a lot of ways worse for me than the year my mom passed away.

[jkl5500]

I'm so sorry about your loss. Losing one's mother is always so hard. You're doing the right thing by reaching out and connecting with others. We are designed to be social beings, and connecting makes us feel human. Can you at least call your sister every so often, and do the same with your friends?

I've read your other posts, and I see that you lost your job a few months ago. You have a lot on your plate right now, so don't bear all this by yourself. Sharing your burdens with understanding people will lessen your strain.

[Lost_in_life in reply to jkl5500]

Thanks. I talk to my sister once a week (and occasionally exchange emails). She's got two teenage kids so she's pretty busy. My friends are pretty busy too. One friend has been making a point of calling me once a week, when he's able to, ever since I told him what I was going through. Another friend has been good about calling every few weeks or so. I'm not good about reaching out to people just because I don't want to be disappointed when people can't talk to me.